#writerly things

I keep your ghost in empty chairs, in half-filled cups and borrowed prayers, in the way the morning light still falls across the outline of your halls.

I loved you like a man who drowns in rivers wearing summer gowns — reckless, warm, and unaware the water doesn't know to care.

And now the silence fills the room the way a tide reclaims the dune, erasing all the prints we left, and I am standing here — bereft.

Yet somewhere underneath the grief, a stubborn, quiet, greening leaf is reaching through the broken stone — not asking much, just asking: home.

I do not want to mourn forever. I do not want to call it never. I want to learn to hold the ache the way a river holds the lake —

present, but not swallowed whole, a wound that teaches, not controls. So let me grieve you, let me feel each jagged edge until it's real —

and then, when morning finds me standing soft-eyed, slower in my landing, let me be the kind of man who loved, who lost, and rose again.

Not because the pain was small. But because I chose to after all.

and then i think about how if i was in a book store reading my cool shit and 40 people showed up to listen to me read it, i would be floored.

Does anyone else love specific characters in their writing more than others, solely because some key aspect of them is based on someone you love deeply in real life?

May whump event!

I know this is very last minute, but I wrote it up so might as well put it out there! Based on the idea of curses :) #maycurses

cw: some have religious connotations

1. may your hands be cut with thorns - Unconventional restraints | Nature | Crawling

2. may food turn to dust on your tongue - Vampire | Starvation | Loss of appetite

3. may you always lose your way - Escape attempt | Disorientated | Led astray

4. may you be cursed - Magic | Holding a grudge | Bargain

5. may the wind blow against you - Storm | Sailing | Defiance

6. may the road fall away from you - Cave in | Cliff edge | Stranded

7. may you be rich in misfortune, poor in blessings - Desperation | Bad luck | Tortured

8. may your god forsake you - Abandoned | Loss of faith | Fall from grace

9. may those who love you, hate you - Betrayal | Loneliness | Lied to

10. may your family disown you - Scorned | Found family | Exile

11. may darkness fall over you - Underground | Collapse | Unconscious

12. may you meet evil on your way - Monster attack | Ambush | Paranoia

13. may your water be bitter, and your food rotten - Poison | Choking | Hunger

14. may roots tangle your steps - Ensnared | Exhausted | Trap

15. may death darken your door - Grief | Too late | Near death

16. may you seek your downfall - Self destruction | Tragedy | Self sacrifice

17. may your eyes be blinded - Loss of senses | Poor judgement | Lied to

18. may those who strike against you, succeed - Falling in battle | Scars | Failure

19. may a plague be upon you - Sickness | Fever | Infection

20. may all hope leave you - Despair | Panic attack | Broken

21. may the rain fall heavy, and the sun be gone - Flood | Drowned | Hypothermia

22. may everyone you touch be made sick - Corrupted | Immune | Touch starved

23. may your ancestors forget you - Amnesia | Brainwashed | Buried

24. may animals flee from your presence - Unnatural | Predator | Fight or flight

25. may the ones you trust be false - Betrayal | Bad advice | Possessed

26. may all you seek be lost - Kidnapped | Missing | Failed rescue

27. may your crops fail, and your animals die - Famine | Begging | Sabotage

28. may revenge consume you - Blood stains | Murder rampage | What have I done

29. may you die young and alone - Left behind | Prophercy | Forgotten

30. may children weep at the sight of you - Monster | Mutilation | Terror

31. may your lands fall to ruin - Royalty | Inheritance | Coming home

Extras:

(Blessings that are curses)

1. may your sword never rust - War | Violence | Fighting ring

2. may you heal every wound - Painful healing | Fatal wound | Chronic pain

3. may the sun always shine - Parched | Burns | Drought

4. may all who meet you, adore you - Inhuman beauty | Objectification | Intimate

5. may you never grow old - Immortality | Death wish | Lab experiment

6. may you tell no lies - Brutal honesty | Insults | Driving everyone away

7. may your every wish be granted - Regret | Spoiled | Enslaved

8. may all your enemies die at your feet - All powerful | Dictator | Guilt

9. may you never feel pain - Numb | Sheltered | Whipping boy

Then that cockwarming thing? Nice in theory but if you know anything about it, you'll go, uh...chafing?