âMaybe Iâm just crazy.â Johnlock đđ
I donât know why Iâm like this but I am so here you go
John burst into the coffee shop, crumpling his makeshift umbrella newspaper and tossing it in the nearest bin, the freak fall rainstorm soaking into his soaks as he walked up the black strip of carpet toward the register. There was a small lineâtwo people between him and the counterâand he sighed, tugging up the sleeve of his emerald green jumper to check the time.
Fifteen minutes until class. He could make it.
The first customer moved aside, the man in front of him stepping up to the cash, and John tugged his backpack around to the front, fishing for his wallet when a familiar voice froze his fingers.
âLarge coffee, black, two sugars.â
He looked up, scanning from the crown of tousled brown curls to the sweeping hem of the long wool coat, believing his eyes even less than his ears.
âLight, medium, or dark roast?â the cashier asked, followed by a lengthy pause.
âMedium,â the man said with no degree of certainty, the cashier nodding and bowing her head to the buttons, Johnâs tongue running away from him as coins clinked into the palm of her hand.
The man turned, familiar steel blue eyes blinking puzzledly.
âJohn?â he said, gaze sweeping over him, John hoping against hope there werenât any obvious stains on this pair of jeans. âWhat are you-â
âYou can pick that up at the end,â the cashier broke in, bobbing her head toward the lip at the far edge of the counter, and Sherlock turned back around, blearily stepping aside as the girl weaved her head to look around his shoulder. âWhat can I get you?â
âEr,â John murmured, tearing his eyes away and stepping up to the register, Sherlock hovering awkwardly a few feet away, âlatte. Small.â
She nodded, inputting the order and handing him his change, and John tossed it hastily into his pocket, shuffling to Sherlockâs side.
âSo,â he chuckled, rocking back on his heels, hands tucked into his pockets, âcome here often?â
âWhat are you doing here?â Sherlock asked, blunt as ever, but John supposed it was a comfort in this day and age to know some things never changed. âI thought you joined the army.â
John swallowed, all his imagined versions of this conversation abandoning him when he needed them most. âI, er...got a scholarship,â he muttered at the floor, Sherlockâs silence pounding against his eardrums.
âAnd didnât tell me?â
The soft question landed heavy, and John winced, lips parting as he lifted his chin.
âI-I thought itâd be better to just...leave it be.â
âBetter,â Sherlock snipped, âor easier?â
Sherlock turned around, scanning the name on the cup and dragging it off the counter with a sigh. âEvery time,â he grumbled, and John smiled, not sure he was allowed to laugh at the moment. Sherlock stared down at his coffee, teeth pinching at the corner of his lip, and then shook his head, as if rattling something loose. âSo,â he muttered, eyes peering over the lid of his cup as he lifted it to his lips, âwhereâd you get this scholarship?â
John blinked up at him, but, after four years, Sherlockâs face had returned to being unreadable, a bitterâbut deservedâpill to swallow. âBarts,â he replied, and then started, glancing down at his watch as his latte thumped down on the counter. âShit,â he hissed, looking up at Sherlockâs quirked brow. âI have an exam,â he said, collecting his drink, eyes darting to the door. âI-I have to-â
âGo,â Sherlock finished, nodding down at his drink, a piece of his mask chipping away to reveal a sad curl of his mouth, and Johnâs heart bounced against his shoes before sinking through the floor, marvelling at the horrors of full circles.
âItâs fine,â Sherlock said, shaking his head and stepping back, a retreat of a different kind chilling the air around them. âIâm sure Iâll...see you around.â
Sherlock turned away with a farewell smile, starting for a table in the corner, Johnâs heart hammering as his gaze darted between the door, his watch, and Sherlockâs retreating back.
âWait!â he blurted, a syllable long overdue, and Sherlock spun around, eyes wide at the volume John already regretted, several unwanted pairs of eyes now drawn to their exchange. âLook, I- Maybe Iâm just crazy,â he rambled, shaking his head, âor-or havenât had my coffee yetââhe lifted the cupââbut I-I donât think things like this just...happen.â
Sherlockâs head tilted. âThings like what?â
âLike this,â John said, waving a hand between them. âUs, running into one another. I mean, what are the odds?â
âI wouldnât bet on them,â Sherlock muttered, shrugging a shoulder, but the swallow rolling down his throat belied his easy tone. âBut what does it matter?â
âI-Iâm just saying, it- Fuck!â he exclaimed, glancing at his watch again. âOkay, I know this is not a conversation to have in two minutes, but thatâs all Iâve got, so, Iâve regretted breaking up pretty much since it happened but was too scared to say anything, and then it got to be too long, and then I didnât care that it had been too long but youâd changed your number, and nobody from secondary school knew where youâd got off to, and youâre not on the internet anywhereâhow is that even possible anymore?âand Iâd really like to get a proper coffee sometime if you donât think Iâm an irreparable ass.â
Sherlockâs mouth was hanging open, his coffee tipping at a dangerous angle as his eyes blinked owlishly, but striking Sherlock Holmes speechless was an achievement he didnât have the time to celebrate.
âI-I really hate to rush you, but-â
âOkay,â Sherlock interjected, a single dazed word that almost swiped Johnâs knees out from under him.
Sherlock confirmed it with a nod, his soft smile framed with pinkening cheeks.
âOkay,â John said, testing the word on his tongue, âokay, er...same time tomorrow?â
Sherlock laughed. âSure,â he agreed, smile broadening under twinkling eyes as John only continued to stare. âDonât you have somewhere to be?â
âSHIT!â John exclaimed, throwing a wave over his shoulder and rushing out the door, heart lighter than it had been in years with Sherlockâs laugh at his back.