#getoutofthecar

Yeah 3 hours should do it

I've been struggling with anxiety and depression for a while now, a good long while. Sometimes it's been worse than others, sometimes I told myself I was actually fine, for a little while I even convinced myself that I wasn't depressed at all, but it's something I've held with me for more years than I care to count. I let this ruin relationships and fuck up my life, just sort of wallowing in it along the way, willfully ignorant and stubbornly refusing any and all attempts at help. Recently however, I ruined the one relationship that meant the most to me and lost my best friend in the world, my lover, and my confidant. I sincerely, more than I can put into words, wish that it hadn't taken so long or such serious actions, but this was a wakeup call to me. Can't say that I'm thankful it happened obviously but I AM thankful to finally realize how deep and dark the hole I'd dug for myself had gotten. I've been told many times to go see a therapist or to seek help in some form but… I don't know, I guess a mix of shame, stubbornness, being scared to re-open old wounds, and of course anxiety left me actively pushing against anything of the sort. Enter @aesoprockwins Aesop's song Get Out Of The Car has always been a huge inspiration for me the few times I would let my mind even consider therapy. Aes has a way of putting into words emotions and thoughts that I've had nebulously floating around in my head and heart for a long time. This song takes place in his car, sitting in front of a therapists office, and deals with his own mental health at a low point in his life before finally telling himself to "get out the car, Aes" and into therapy. This all inspired me to work on the piece you're seeing now. This is me getting out of the car. This is me seeking help. This is me wanting to live a normal life without carrying this burden constantly. This is me hoping to become the person she once thought I was. This is me trying to heal, trying to become whole again, trying to be at peace in my own skin, trying to calm the turmoil in my mind. This is not just me. This is millions. #aesoprock #getoutofthecar #depressionawareness #mentalhealth #watercolor #art #tattooflash (at Dallas, Texas) https://www.instagram.com/p/CL4zeRAFeG9/?igshid=9hetjz9myhbu

Another 75% off #sale !! Decorate your #mancave with this #vintage #policelight which is now only $56.25 plus tax. #fvm22 #policelights #policelightsflashing #thatsthesoundofthepolice #fiveo #miami50 #vroomvroom #getoutofthecar

Waiting for hoomans to get out of the car is heckin' hard. #stoopidhuman #getoutofthecar #heck #berneseofinstagram #dogsofinstagram

#SaveOurCity . . . . #grandavenueartsdistrict #artlover #streetart #publicart #guerillaart #stencilart #urbanart #alleytourist #lovethisplace #urbanhike #citylife #dtphx #phoenixart #arizona #explore #slowdown #walk #getoutofthecar #getoutside (at Historic Grand Avenue)

On our way to Mammoth last year we saw a few riders on highway 395 and I had to pull over and take their portraits. #395north #horsebackriding #cowboy #portraitmood #environmentalportrait #photooftheday #getoutofthecar #portraits_ig #portraitmode #nikon #d750 (at Hwy 395)

I am not okay with #OilSpiLls #HereThereEverywhere #GetOutOfTheCar #WalkWithUs #PROTECTTHESACRED #KEEPITINTHEGROUND #HearInEarth #BelowTheSurface #ForestToPlate

#FRESHWATER #GETOUTOFTHECAR #NOWHUMANITY (at Schuylkill River Trail)