#garhhh

Thinking that was it, I went on with my life. Then he texted me in the beginning of december, asking me how life was. I just said good, but busy, merry christmas, and didn’t respond to anything since then. He has since texted me on christmas eve, and when I didn’t respond he wrote happy new year to me on the site we originally met, on january 1st, which I only saw yesterday, when I went online to the site again after not having been there for 4 months. I then removed him as a friend there, and archived our conversations, including the new message. 

And today I got a new text. I haven’t opened it yet, but it seems to be a “Are you still alive?” text.

And I am so angry?! Like, I let him down really nicely, we didn’t know each other for shit, and he even reacted alright to it at the time, but he just can’t seem to let me go!? I didn’t even indicate that I actually wanted to see him in the new year, I just said “I don’t think I will have the time even then, so don’t get your hopes up. Have a nice life”.

He knows the building I live in, but he doesn’t even actually know my full name. But still, he should be able to find my room if he wanted to. He has been in the military, out 7 tours, twice to Iraq, twice to Afghanistan, once to Sudan, once to Libya, and one I don’t remember. So he might have some serious mental damage that I didn’t originally see, and I am starting to become a bit worried? Like, I know it’s just texting, but who says he won’t turn to something like stalking when he discovers that I defriended him on the dating site.  As I said, I didn’t know him that well. I have no idea what he is gonna do.

Or I need to get a new tablet that won't act like an idiot on me.