#fun question game

7. what scares you the most and why?

lol well the Anxieties™ would say failure but that's boring so: I am paralyzingly afraid of heights! It is almost 100% a subconscious physical reaction which makes it really funny sometimes because my whole body just! locks up! and won't move!! and i'm like "this is so dumb I KNOW i am fine" but my body's like "DANGER RED ALERT DON'T MOVE THE CLIFF CAN'T SEE YOU IF YOU DON'T MOVE"

both of the best occurrences of this happened at Arches Nat'l Park with my fam where I:

hiked to Delicate Arch, stood out in the photo spot, came back to the bowl and had a snack/water break and then, when we were ready to head back down....had to take off my shoes and crab walk barefoot until my body decided it was fine actually

same day, we went to Double Arch. Double Arch, as you may note, is not actually very high! I saw a great photo opp, darted forward with 0 thought (as you do), got two (2) feet off the ground. And Froze. spread eagle on this wall. Two (2) feet off the ground. 24 inches. My sister saw me, clocked what had happened, and both of started laughing hysterically while a poor woman beside us watched in mild horror

30. what’s one thing that never fails to make you happy/happier?

seeing my plants grow!! it's silly but I really do make myself take little walks around my apartment when I'm stressed and just Behold the Abundance!!! it works!

thank you for the questions bestie👌🏼

21: Who would you want to be stranded with on a deserted island?

fictionally? bradley bradshaw for sure. i’d never get lonely or bored

realistically? my bestfriend lol or my cat😁

22. Breakfast, lunch or dinner?

26. fave colour and why?

Deep, warm toned purple. I love jewel tones quite a bit, but this shade of purple just... Feels like me somehow. It's happy and calming and isn't too overstimulating like brighter colors can be to me.

It's pretty specifically this purple that is used for the accent color of the dress and hat in this art commissioned a few years ago.

28. do you collect anything?

7. what scares you the most and why?

Answered this one here! But also: cockroaches. It is also entirely irrational but much less funny for me personally because it is a whole body/brain reaction of abject and insurmountable terror

20. favourite things about the night?

STARS!! I MISS! THE CONSTELLATIONS!!!! WHERE IS MY NIGHT SKY!!!!! also i love the way house lights become little golden windows into people's lives, just these tiny glimpses of a hundred worlds you may never actually interact with. I also just love the like...exhalation of the world around you with it? Like I'm biased rn because it's a cool, breezy, post-rain night here but I love the way the night can feel like the world spreading out and relaxing—the quiet and the sounds that weave through that quiet and disappear and the way the darkness becomes so lovely and deep, embracing all the lines and colors of the day in the same shadows

22. say 3 things about someone you love

Picking on my sister even tho she won't see this lol:

she's really, really passionate and cares very deeply about the things that matter to her

she works really hard to build community and is a really good convener of people across different groups

she tries her best to support me even when she has no goddamn clue what I'm talking about lol

25. fave season and why?

It's always been fall (October is my favorite month) for the color and crispness and the perfect blue skies under gold and amber canopies, but spring is so lush and beautiful here that it's winning me over.

28. do you collect anything?

Not really? I have some categories of things I have a lot of (plants and books and art and weird little dishes people give me) but I don't really think of any of those as collections so much as like...necessary conditions for a healthy environment lol

VICTORY OVER THE HORRORS ACHIEVED!!

24. what’s one thing you’re proud of yourself for?

oh hm. I guess this is kind of cliche but I've worked really hard to know what's right for me at a given time and build a life that I love? From things like my apartment and how it's set up to like continuing to pursue dance professionally while working at a job I mostly like a lot and care about and continuing to grow as a writer and artist and pianist and building a community around me of people I love and admire.

Like it's easy for me to get bogged down in what's not great (e.g., frustration with dance. a lot. lol) and to joke about how my younger self wouldn't be impressed at all because I was a judgmental lil shit, but in reality, I think if a younger version of myself saw me now it would both be very validating in that I am becoming more and more myself every year and hopeful in the knowledge that like...this life is possible and I get to have it. So I guess I'm like proud of the work I've done and continue to do for that and I'm just really grateful to have this life.

ahem okay sappiness over!!

32. how many tabs do you have open right now?

HA! I shut down my laptop last night for updates so I currently only have 4 open 😎

(...and 34 on my phone and let's just not talk about my work laptop)

34. any pet peeves?

oh man so many! I am. a little bit of a cranky old man at heart lol but I think my biggest pet peeve is probably just when someone I'm talking to doesn't actually listen to me

Rules: Answer the questions and tag 20 people.

How tall are you? 5′11 What colour and style is your hair? long black hair What colour are your eyes? dark brown Do you wear glasses/contacts? yes (glasses) Do you use braces? Never had braces What is your fashion style? not sure,  How old are you? 21 Do you have any siblings? yes, brother and sister  What school or college do you go to? Great Bay Commuinty College What kind of student are you? I don’t, i guess an average student                                                                      What are your favourite subjects? not to sure What are your favourite shows? Game of Thrones, Mr. Robot, Seinfeld, and many others What are your favourite movies? Star Wars trilogy, Goodfellas, Carol, lord of the rings, and many others What are your favourite books? Don’t have a particular one, Star wars novels What’s your favourite pastime? hanging out with friends, listening to music, prodding Do you have any regrets? yea i do What is your dream job? Music producer, sound design with movies, tv, etc. Would you like to get married? for sure Would you like to have kids and how many? yeah, not sure Do you like shopping? depends what i’m shopping for How many countries have you visited so far?                                            What’s the scariest dream you’ve ever had? I’ve had a bunch, but don’t remember most of them                                                                                   Do you have any enemies? I don’t think so….                                                                             Do you have a boyfriend/girlfriend? nope

anyone else can do this as well :)