"we carry our own loneliness with us."
↳ @fullrigor
luther wishes he could say that the feeling of loneliness was left on the moon's floor -- that all his problems were washed away the moment he came back to earth, and he no longer felt alone. but his loneliness was never just about the pure isolation he was confined to --- it was always bigger than that. he's been lonely all his life; even with his family, as a team, they were never granted the luxuries of friendships, hardly even with each other as their father kept each of their relationships so calculated. when they all left him behind, that loneliness only grew, became so hard to ignore that it almost destroyed him by the time he was sent to the moon.
❝ we don't get to leave it behind even when things are starting to look up, do we? ❞ he mostly mumbles it to himself as he glances over to her, his shoulders shrugging. they are starting to look up; it's starting to feel like maybe there's hope here, that he can actually build a relationship with his siblings despite everything their father did to them. beyond that, he wants friendships, he wants to know the love he was never allowed to experience -- he wants to figure out who he can be when the loneliness doesn't have a chokehold over him. she's right; it may always be a part of him, but he's learning to cope in ways better than he had before. he's learning not to hide himself away and make that loneliness worse when it starts to get to him.
❝ i used to think that loneliness was just a part of life. that that's how things were supposed to be. but it's not for me, and it's not for you. ❞ he brings his hand up, resting it gently on annie's shoulder, the physical contact and connection something he's gravitating towards more lately ( because hiding himself away from that only contributed to his loneliness, too. ) ❝ you got me. we can deal with that together. ❞
