#fucking panic

Work canceled. Might be canceled longer. I've got my 2nd job thankfully. So fingers crossed they don't cancel as well. My first job manager is stubborn and an idiot who fails at communicating. I tried to clarify with them and all they did was repeat themselves in caps. I hate managers...

i can be normal i will be ok

I MIGHT LOSE MY BEST FRIEND IM FUCKING UPSET. I HATE THIS HOUSE SOMETIMES MANN

ha ha ha ha ha ha ha ha ohgodjesusfuck so we move in like, a week and the job transfer I applied for through my current employer still haven't got back to me. They've been advertising for my job for two months now and I still don't have a job to go to once we get to Scotland and I am freaking the fuck out. Applied for a bunch more jobs so I hope I hear back. One is actually for the parks department. Its only seasonal so doesn't start until March though but it will pay well and I think I'd really like it. Plus there's the chance it could lead onto something else. Also went for a job with the postal service. Didn't realise there was a super intense online practical test though. Hope I didn't screw it up. The only other jobs were ones I really don't want to do. I may not exactly love what I do right now, but I don't really want to go into something much worse just to escape it! At the moment it's scarily looking like my wife might have to live in Scotland by herself while I stay here for another month, just to make sure I'm getting some money, but then that makes looking for work in Scotland a bit harder. If I can at least get an interview for the week I am up there moving in, that would be something. Even better would be to get transfer. I can move up straight away, still apply for the other jobs as they're nearer and pay better and will still have a wage.

That horrible moment when you cant figure out which way you twisted the hair tie as you try to pull it out