Rose

so please enjoy my rants,my thoughts,and random word puke that i have to offer <3

We went to a big fancy theater for a field trip a while back and i was ofc sitting next to a friend. Now, homie likes to show me videos a lot so he was showing me specifically Frickbears 3 and a whole walkthrough of characters and behaviors and different endings ect ect, it took up the ride there + ride to go get lunch before heading back. I was able to tough it out most of the ride there, not getting too badly car sick until right when we were about to go get lunch and were like 10 minutes out. He wanted to show me something else and the following interaction happened

"Hey lets take a break until after lunch, my car sickness is hitting me" "you get car sick?" "Yeah kinda, i just get a queasy feeling if i stare at a screen while driving. Ill be fine once we get off for a little bit though" *realizing he had been showing me a video and pretty much making me stare at a screen for approx. 1~2 hours total at that point* "Why didnt you tell me anything?!" "Bc i wanted to listen to what you were talking about."

Realizing I'm hot/attractive is a shocking realization to me every single time.

Having a friend who I've known for a year and who I've mutually flirted with kiss me at a party and then text me later saying he wouldve done more and wanted to do that for a long time, that he loves how I look and that I'm sexy. Getting an offer from another friend over VC for an ASMR video because he really really wants it, then another friend agreeing. When I tell him its shocking that he of all people would say that, I'm told that he finds my voice soothing and he gets to find out that it flustered me in every way possible

People having crushes/getting attached to me online with my personality and how I choose my words and then when they actually see my face or hear my voice instantly getting more clingy and praising everything about me