#frogive me

...Here’s an old commission that reminds me of @palezma  

Source: Ajin: Demi-Human / 亜人 

-coughs- Clearly someone has not gotten into the 300 area of the eps, and knows not of Keroro’s Mama!

Dite: I will devour you like a pray mantis.

Right now, I feel like the most despicable human being in the entire world. I have been crying for a little over an hour, sometimes obnoxiously loud, because I feel like I should just crawl into a hole for awhile and just let myself wither away.

I did the one thing I said I would never do: push her away. And I did and there is no turning back. I can’t live with myself knowing that this happened and knowing what I did. All I ever wanted was to have that one friend that I could be completely myself with and have that person always be there for me, through thick and thin. I could have had that friend and she honestly probably would have been there for me through anything.

But not this. I took her trust and I destroyed it. I ruined it. And it didn’t just kill our friendship, it killed her. All I want right now is another chance to earn her trust back, but I don’t think that is going to happen. I have never in my life trusted anyone the way I trust her. She is truly the best friend I ever wanted. And right now, I want to cry at her feet and beg her to give me another chance. The last few weeks have been unbearable and I don’t think I can handle this anymore.

Please, I was wrong. I did the one thing I said I would never do. I looked you in the eye and said I would never hurt you like that and I did. Yes, I somehow convinced myself that it was to try and help you, but let’s be honest, regardless of what my reasons were, it was a terrible idea. I know it hurt you in so many ways and I’m sorry. I’m more sorry than I have ever been in my life and I have made so many mistakes in my life, you know that. But honestly, this was my biggest mistake.

No amount of my pain will ever match up to the pain I’m sure you’re feeling. And all I can say is I’m sorry. I don’t know if there is anything I could ever do to make this better, but please if there is, tell me. The thought that I’m losing you is killing me a little more every day.

I don’t deserve sympathy or pity. I screwed up and I need to take responsibility for that. But I would be lying if I said I don’t miss you. I would be lying if I said seeing you laughing and having fun with other doesn’t completely destroy me inside. I would be lying if I said that I have never felt more alone than I do now. I would be lying if I said I haven’t been crying every night since it happened. And I would be lying if I said that I’m OK with not being your friend anymore.