#frogcg

in the thick of it.

doing what i have to do, though.

the little was away for 10 days.

i did not like it.

it was too quiet. i kept reaching for someone who wasn’t there. very embarrassing for me personally.

i thought about whether i failed as a caregiver. i still don’t fully know.

but she came back home.

she’s resting. i’m supervising.

little said to me “my tummy hurts and my heart feels heavy”

so i said “come sit, i’ve got you”

sometimes a little loses their caregiver.

and afterward there are all these icky feeling moments.

it’s quiet and you still reach for them anyway. in small ways. silly ways. wanting to show them things. wanting to tell them about your day. wanting them nearby during the hard parts.

but it’s important to remember: the softness you were given does not disappear just because the person is gone.

you are still deserving of care on the days nobody reminds you.

keep tending to the little things. drink enough water. hold your stuffies close. rest when you can. let yourself be small without shame.

sometimes we might have hard time trusting new people because of past experiences.

we remember what it felt like when things didn’t go right or kindness didn’t stay.

but not every new face carries the weight of the old ones.

just take it slow.