UNPOPULAR OPINION POST!!! PART 2 ...and I was miserable! That's right I hated nursing. It was hot, uncomfortable, positionally she preferred me to lie down while she fed, I felt claustrophobic, like I never had any space and all these feelings came with so much guilt. Where was this beautiful moment I was always hearing about? It wasn't beautiful for me, it filled me with so much stress and anxiety. What was wrong with me? For a couple months when people would ask how nursing was going I would say she never quite latched, or had developed a flow preference. I told myself that's what happened. What a big fat lie!! She was on track to being an A+ nurser, myself on the other hand I hated it and was awful at it. Struggling to nurse Cosy and then finding success taught me I actually didn't hate pumping, it was kind of perfect for me. Pumping gives me me time. It allowed me time to unwind after a day at home with 2 under 2. Every day without fail Paul takes over completely first thing in the morning, when he is home from work, after bedtime and in the middle of the night. If one or both kiddos need something it's daddy to the rescue because I'm pumping and success lies in getting a good let down and that doesn't happen with stress. Recently I was picking up Maverick from daycare and one of his friends mom asked how breastfeeding was going. I told her she's breastfed as I pump but not nursing. Having known the initial latching struggles she said "I'm sorry she didnt end up latching. We tried for a month and it just wasn't for us." I'm not sure what came over me but I asked "Did you hate it?" "Pardon?" "Did you hate it because the truth is she latched pretty good in the end but I hated breastfeeding." And from there I listed off all the things I HATED about breastfeeding by the time I was done my word vomit she said "I have never heard anyone say that, and yes I hated it. I felt the exact same way." #fedisbest #pumplife #freezerstash #pumpingmom #micropreemie #micropreemiemom #liquidgold #milkbank #gotmilk #sharingiscaring #breastfed #breastfeeding #exclusivelybreastfed #breastfeedingmama #breastmilkstorage #breastmilkfordays https://www.instagram.com/p/B0RDl9-lH1Z/?igshid=1bkb5pqdlmw32