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Umpteenth selfie

I debated posting this. I thought about it some more and I think it needs to be somewhere permanent. A year ago, I was struggling with ending a long relationship that had really turned unhealthy. It was never something I expected, nor was I prepared for. I had large, grandiose plans with this person that would never come to fruition and I struggled to accept that. A few months later, we'd end things for good. Then, the following 4 months after seemed to be literal hell. But now, mid-August, as I look at this video, I realize exactly why I went through what I went through and the lessons I've learned. 8 months after being pushed into being alone, I have found a love for myself that could move mountains. I have an appreciation for being alone that could scare the loneliest being. I have found my laugh again when I thought I might not. I have learned sweating is one of the best medicines for me. Everything around me is brighter now, all because I started to love myself. Not relying on someone to validate me was the best thing to happen. I embrace my curves, my freckles, my stretch marks, my tummy, and everything in between (although I still hate my HS). I don't worry about what I'm doing or who I'm with, because I don't feel guilty anymore. I am feeling myself times 10 and it's the most liberating thing. I promise you, it is so much more important to love yourself than it is to try to "fix" yourself. Yes, I have imperfections, and yes, I will be working to change them, but that is not my reason for existing. I am more than that. I am grateful I can feel confident enough to make a video of my face and not want to crawl in a hole when I watch it. I'm thankful I can look at me and not feel the urge to filter and edit my face until it looks perfect to me. My journey is a never-ending one, but I have truly loved every piece of it. When you begin to love your flaws and embrace them, you become happier. 🤗 #sundaysession #preaching #selflove #bopo #bodypositivity #drake #loveyourself #confident #feelingmyself #bhcosmetics #betterthansexmascara #toofaced #mac #baseballbabes #freckz #halflife #recovery @champagnepapi

I was trying to get a picture of my winged eyeliner I did today. I snapped a few shots and went on about my business. I came back to them a bit later and immediately loved how my eyes looked. Upon editing, I slowly started to drag myself down. You can see my blemish there, my face looks so asymmetrical (am I really that lopsided?!), I shouldn't have tilted my head, my cheekbones are so prominent, the bags forming under my eyes...the list went on. I had to give myself a reality check. Up until I took the pictures and really looked at them, I felt wonderful. So why let that hateful part of my inner self bring me down? Guys, believe it or not, life is too short to spend hating yourself. I promise you you'll be happier when you focus on how you feel towards yourself. It's taken me a long time to learn how to love myself, and I'm still working on it. It will be a process for as long as I live. But instead of deleting the progress on this picture for the third time, I am choosing to post it. Because I deserve to find the good inside this picture. 👸🏻🤗 #selflove #recovery #bodypositive #bopowarrior #browneyes #wingedliner #loreal #toofaced #katvond #makeup #freckleface #freckz #loveyourself #howkalligothergrooveback

60. Ever too scared to watch scary movies alone? Nahhh i'm a real man

I know, I just wanted to answer more questions :( aha

2. Painted your room? Nahhh, wallpaper innit