#frauloca

It's totally snowing right now!!! My inner Californian is trying really hard to keep it cool. I just keep reminding myself what part of town I live in, so that I don't compulsively start eating it and rolling around in it. ☺️ #snowdaypdx #snow #portland #pdx #pnw #frauloca (at Portland, Oregon)

@joannathangiah, I would rather look at your art than bask in the love of a thousand men. Which I guess isn't saying much since I'm earnestly saving myself for a Leslie Mann/Judd Apatow kind of love anyway. I used to use the things I hated about myself to motivate change. I'd get an idea of who I should look like and then adapt weird food restrictions. I'd make my body do these things that it didn't like, in the wrong atmosphere, never giving a bit of attention to how it was making me feel. I never listened to my body; never knew I could. In the end, I would hate myself for not trying hard enough, despite rigorous efforts. I knew about self-love and sometimes tried for like a minute, but never the kind of love I've been willing to give to others. Around Thanksgiving, I started taking in anything I could on self-love. I started following positivity and letting go of the toxic. I started being grateful for my body. Aches, pains, weirdness, wild proportions of uneven squishiness, all of it. I would actually start telling my body thank you, and I love you. It's funny how weird intentional dialogue with our body seems when in actuality we maintain such degrading inner dialogues. I finally realized that all the things I hated about my body, were just its way of trying to understand my stresses, communicate with me, and protect me. In reality, this body has been my most faithful friend, she always tries no matter how hard I ignore or abuse her. Once I realized I could listen & trust my body over emotions and bad advice from women's magazines, I did. You know what she told me, she only likes late-night pizza when I'm happy, never when I'm sad. My body super loves unprocessed foods, water, not that much alcohol, and to sweat it out in hot baths. She likes long walks around my city motivated by connection with people, not achieving the tiniest biggest ass. Am I right, is every magazine not telling me I need the tiniest biggest ass? What is my body supposed to do with that information? Ignore it. #selflove #portland #pdx #pnw #frauloca (at Portland, Oregon)

My friend Sara took a bunch of awesome pictures, so I decided she could have her dog back. 🗻 #mounthood #besties #portland #pdx #pnw #friends #sisters #frauloca (at Mount Hood)

The girls got to go to Mount Hood and play in the snow with my favorite family, but there was no room in the car for me. So I stole their dog. #onthelam #whosagoodboy #portland #pdx #pnw #frauloca (at Woodlawn Park)

A hand typed note left for me in the room I'm staying in tonight.😭Here's to a year full of this kind of love. #glow #somedaywhen #love #friendship #2016 #bringit #portland #pdx #pnw #frauloca

Oooooh, I wonder what they make in there? I hope it's milk chocolate bars, because I'm going in! 🍫💪🏼 #gettinit #becoming #sweatitout #portland #pdx #pnw #selfcare #selflove #frauloca (at Portland, Oregon)

Even though they weren't ready for this jelly, I am so grateful they're my baby daddies. If I lined up all the dads in the world, I'd pick them every time. I love my family. So much. Merry Christmas. "And we're all in it together now as we all fall apart. And we're swapping little pieces of our broken little hearts." ~ @drdogmusic #family #babydaddiesbelike #coparenting #christmas #love #grateful #portland #pdx #pnw #thedads #thesisters #frauloca (at Portland, Oregon)

Yesterday morning Truly helped me wake up her sister by gently rubbing her back and softly singing a song about a menorah. Then halfway through Truly goes, "You get the picture. You guys know what a menorah is right? There's like eight verses." Then she just stops singing, gives up on Normandy and goes on with her life. I get her so much. I am organizing my 7-year-old iMac and looking at every single file ever. Total cry-machine. Anyway, expect some throwbacks. Truly & Normandy are SO CUTE at age 3 & 4 in Nashville. #trulylouise #normandymae #sisters #menorah #happyholidays #nashville #throwback #portland #pdx #pnw #frauloca (at Nashville, Tennessee)