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Jess listened to the beep beep beep of the heart monitor. It mixed with the binging of the IV distributor machine (that was one of the few words he actually did not know) that let him know one of the bags was just about empty. The TV was turned on to Casablanca but the sound was down and he couldn't hear even one line, but that was okay because he didn't really love that movie but didn't feel like changing the channel.

She found him in his usual spot. A little seed on the bridge overlooking the lake. Jess often wondered if it was man-made or was it really that tiny of a body of water. He wondered but never sought out an answer. It didn't matter one way or another. Is was a nice place. Every season it looked a little different. The evolution of time was apparent and for some reason it made him not feel so alone. This town and his life tended to do that - tended to make him feel alone.

Jess stuffed his hands into his the pockets of his leather jacket. Fingers curling into fists, the dark-haired young man felt his fingernails dig into his palm. He wasn't angry at Rory for asking. Here's angry at himself. Angry that he couldn't do more. Angry that he couldn't be more. Angry that he was back in Stars Hollow because he just couldn't exist on his own - as much as he wanted.

" Nothing, Rory. You didn't do anything. It's me. I know that's a crappy line that people pull, but it really is," Jess answered has he watched fireflies flickering in the distance. It gave him something to focus on so he didn't turn to face her. He didn't want her seeing his failures or his grief. They etched themselves in his eyes and lines of his face and they wouldn't leave. " I messed up. I kept messing up. And now I'm here without anything. I don't even have a home."

For so long he had kept it all bottled up. He pushed everyone away. He hid what was going on so no one knew. They thought it was the best choice and the easiest choice. But it was the most lonely position of his life.

" Luke and I had a deal when I came back. I would graduate high school and he'd let me stay as long as I needed or wanted. I couldn't graduate. I couldn't pass the tests so I start working more. I kept skipping. I miss so many days that I was going to have to retake senior year. I would have flunked again and again and again when I take the test I can't do it. I don't understand what I'm reading. The letters get jumbled. Nothing makes sense. But yeah I couldn't do it. Luke found out and he kicked me out. A deal's a deal."

He paused. He licked his lips. Nerves were trying to get the better of him. "So I couldn't get the tickets to prom because I wasn't graduating. I should have told you. I didn't want you disappointed in me. And then that night when you followed me and I wanted more, I should have listened to you.... I'm sorry I didn't. I'm sorry I hurt you. I should have stopped with your first hesitation."

I typically write angsty males, with the occasional female character that others in the fandom seem to hate or not like to interact with as much as your more main characters. Pros for my characters I feel like they’ve all definitely shaped and matured my writing where it used to be all over the place and rushed, now I can slow myself down and address darker topics I never would have thought I could put into decent enough words. It’s funny how after writing certain muses for a while that they start to become almost a part of yourself, an extension to be used in threads and servers. I truly have a connection to each and every muse I write and I think that makes it easier for me to understand them. I get such a wide variety in waves when I get the chance to let them use their voices and I’m honestly here for that.

"So you CAN tell us apart. I was getting worried your poor little eyes were failing you. Since you clearly are projecting your love for me onto that blank slate."

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