getting things out of the system that i cant talk about irl #mental health//
its the last night at my place before i move out for good and im not sad necessarily that im moving im sad because i thought i would be moving out for school or at the very least because i was able to support myself financially
and instead its because i dont have an income and my mom cant afford to keep our apartment so shes going to live with a family friend and theres another relative whos taking me in
and im moving out of my home town that ive lived in for 15 years and even though its not a great place and im happy to get out of it, theres still a lot memories from growing up around here that are making me emotional and adding onto all of my other issues and not helping
i know its shitty to complain because going to have a safe place to live and im greatful that my family (for the most part) is accepting and understands that im struggling with my autism and adhd and anxiety
but very specifically im upset about moving out of this place that i moved into 3 years ago because i had such high hopes of what i was about to do next with my life, and now i have to realize how little ive actually accomplished since then . . .
im just reminded all of my failures
especially on the things i tried really really hard to make work and couldnt do it
it feels so shitty and sad
