BRANCHCLAN WRITINGS #3- OWLSHADE
After all of these moons, the SpottedClan border still made Owlshade anxious.Â
Normally, when a patrol was headed in that direction he would split off from the group and slink off, always coming up with some excuse about finding a prey scent nearby or thinking he heard pawsteps. For some reason, he was always believed.
Or perhaps no-one wanted to question Owlshadeâs authority.
Owlshade sat, curling his tail around his paws politely, and he waited.
Owlshade was beginning to fall asleep.
Finally, a soft mrrp caught the tomâs attention and he perked up, standing when he caught sight of the cat he had been waiting for.
Oh, how handsome he was, even now.Â
The tomâs gray fur was patchier, now, and speckled with the same silver that was beginning to tinge his muzzle. His green eyes, which Owlshade so clearly remembered being bright and youthful, were growing cloudy, and carried a slight sadness that Owlshade hadnât noticed before. Did something happen?Â
Waspfoot padded closer, bumping his forehead to Owlshadeâs with a low purr. He began to nuzzle the other tomâs neck, making him shiver a bit.
âOh, OwlyâŚâ He murmured. âI missed you.â
âAnd I missed you,â Owlshade replied, smiling as he took a few pawsteps back. He looked Waspfoot up and down. âDid something happen?â
Waspfoot hesitated, before letting out a heavy sigh and looking down at his paws. âItâs Rosewhisker.â
The mention of his son, Violetsongâs littermate, made Owlshade stiffen.Â
â...Is he alright?â He asked, but he almost wasnât sure if he wanted the answer.
Waspfoot shook his head. He didnât meet Owlshadeâs gaze. âHeâs dead.â
âWhat?â Owlshadeâs eyes widened, a tightness filling his chest. This couldnât be real- Surely Waspfoot was joking? âNoâŚâ
âYes,â Waspfoot muttered sadly. âRogues. Those star-damned brutesâŚIâm happy you didnât see his body.â
Owlshadeâs ears pinned back. âWe already lost LilacnoseâŚâ
âYes, I know,â Waspfoot muttered. âBluebellpool is beside herself.â
Owlshade fell silent for a long time. He felt a strange feeling engulfing him, and wondered for a moment if it was the same grief Aspenfall had felt when he found out about Spiderstepâs death.Â
Owlshade had never witnessed any of his kits' deaths before. He had been sad when he left Lilacnose, Rosewhisker, and Bluebellpool with their father many moons ago, yes, but he was still able to see them when he wanted to.Â
The thought that he wouldnât see Rosewhisker or Lilacnose again for a long time broke his heart. And poor BluebellpoolâŚOwlshade had already heard of her daughterâs passing a few moons back. Flurrykit had been the only one in the litter, and Bluebellpoolâs second kit after Mossyfall. She passed of kittencough just a moon before her apprentice ceremony. Owlshade never got to meet his granddaughter. And just a few moons prior to that Owlshade and Waspfootâs son Lilacnose had succumbed to a snake bite.
Owlshade let his mind wander. Had Rosewhisker been scared when he died? Was he hurt?
Did he call for him in his final moments?
Shaking his head, Owlshade looked back up at Waspfoot. âI need to tell you something.â
Waspfoot glanced up with a small nod. âIââm listening, Owly.â
âIâmâŚExpecting kits.â Owlshade meowed, forcing a smile. âTheyâll be here next moon. Possibly sooner.â
Waspfootâs ear flicked. âI assume theyâre mine.â
âYes.â Owlshade chose not to mention Squirrel. The loner, of course- Not Squirreltail. Though the tom had sired Maplepool and Aspenfall, Owlshade continued to meet him, and the two grew closeâŚ
If Owlshade was being honest, he didnât know which tom had fathered this litter. It didnât matter, he told himself, because neither of them were in the clan anyway.
âYou look like youâre barely showing at all!â Waspfoot looked Owlshade up and down. âAre you sure you didnât just eat a lot or something?â
Owlshade chuckled, despite his mildly dampened mood. âIâm sure.â
Waspfoot looked into Owlshadeâs eyes, and for a moment both toms were silent. Owlshade could tell that they both had questions.
He figured he would speak first. âHow do youâŚâ
âFeel? I donât know,â Waspfoot replied, shuffling his paws. âOwly, weâre old. Weâre not the same cats we were before, the first time this happened. We know better now.â
Owlshade looked away. âYesâŚI know.â
âHow many kits are there?â
âI donât know. Our healers said no more than two.â
Waspfoot was silent for a few seconds. âWill they be staying with you?â
âYes, they will be,â Owlshade meowed in reply. âI donât have a reason to give them up anymore.â
Again, another stretch of silence.
â...We could leave.â Waspfoot suggested. âI take Bluebellpool and her kin, you take Violetsong and whatever kin you have in BranchClan, and we leave. We make our own clan. We could call it SplinterClan-â
âI feel like someoneâs already done that.â Owlshade murmured.
â...Weâll come up with something.â Waspfoot waved a paw. âBut we shouldnât have to do this. We could be together, the way we want to be-â
âOr you could join BranchClan.â Owlshade stated.Â
Waspfoot looked at him as if he had grown another tail and three more legs. âOwlshade, no, I canât. You know this.â
âIt would be easier than starting over.â
âI donât want to see the faces of my former clanmates if I left.â Waspfoot meowed. âSeeing them at gatherings, on patrols, it would be awful.â
âI feel the same,â Owlshade said, his voice soft, âwhen I have to encounter you or one of our kits on patrol.â
â...Iâm not joining BranchClan.â Waspfoot murmured. âI just canât. Iâm sorry, Owly.â
âItâsâŚFine.â Owlshade replied.
Waspfoot looked up at the sky. Suddenly, his ears pricked. âAh- I think someoneâs calling me. Iâll be right back.â
âMmm,â Owlshade hummed in acknowledgement.Â
Waspfoot turned and ran away surprisingly fast for a tom his age. The last thing Owlshade saw was his fluffy tail vanishing into some bushes.
And againâŚOwlshade sat.
And once again, he waited.
And he waited. He waited until his paws were numb and the sky had turned a dark blue. Owlshade looked up. The stars were out, and one was glowing brighter than the rest.
âHello, RosewhiskerâŚâ Owlshade whispered. âIâm waiting on your father.â
But Waspfoot never came back.
Violetsong appeared, her black fur blending into the dark sky and the shadows of the forest.
âPapaâŚâ She murmured, her tone scolding. âWhat are you doing all the way out here? And pregnant, no lessâŚâ
She nudged Owlshade to his paws and began to pad alongside him, so close their pelts were touching.Â
âCome on,â She said, âWe should be getting you home. Everyone is asking about you.â
Owlshadeâs whiskers twitched. He wanted to protest- he was waiting for someone, Stars damn it!Â
But in the back of his mind, he knew Waspfoot wasnât coming back, and he didnât know if he would ever see him again.
And that was okay. Owlshade didnât need him anymore.
He had his family right here, within BranchClan territory. His kitsâŚOr kit, if he were blessed with only oneâŚWould grow up loved and safe, surrounded by cats who cherished them.
And that was enough for Owlshade. More than enough.