#flowerbedmc

🌷 Welcome to FlowerbedMC !🌷

We are an all inclusive LGBTQ+ community that strives towards creating a safe space for anyone and everyone.

Some pretty pictures from my playtime at @flowerbedmc-community

entrance of our mesa base + bakery!!!

Hello everyone. As I’m sure some of you are aware, I was formerly admin/owner of a minecraft java called “flowerbedmc”. I say formerly because as of a month ago, I permanently left my position and the server. And today I’m here to fully explain the reasoning for my sudden departure. It’s taken a while for me to come and write this, but I think I’m finally ready.

Oh, and if I find that anyone goes and harasses the staff of the server then you’ll be sorry. I may not like the server anymore but the people I had issues with have mostly left. It’s unfair to target those not involved and those that no longer want to be involved.

I had been staff for 2 years. 16-year-old me really wanted the title of helper for some reason haha. I rose through the ranks quite quickly and became an admin about 6 months ago. My official title was “community admin” meaning I dealt with the users, not the builds or tech. Being admin started as being one of the best experiences of my life, until it wasn’t.

(Note: I will not be mentioning any names in this post to protect the privacy of those involved.)

Nearly every day without fail, two of the staff I worked close with argued. It often started as something small that then escalated to full on arguments written in full caps lock. I tried to mediate and do my job as “community admin” but my messages were either ignored or I was told to essentially shut up. This is the part where my mental health started decreasing rapidly.

A short while later, a small group of staff started ganging up on another staff member. I don’t fully know what happened as I was asleep at the time, but it resulted in the group of staff being demoted and banned. This whole thing was handled horribly, and I honestly wish I could go back and do things differently. And this is where the first hate posts came to be. Posts on tumblr were made targeting us for how we handled the whole thing, and they said some really awful stuff. My mental health was basically at 0 at this point and I needed to take a break but with 2 admins already on break, I couldn’t afford to as well.

A couple of months after that, I was promoted to co-owner but unfortunately the other owner at the time left staff before I could be properly trained. As an 18-year-old with no clue on how to do finances or tech stuff, I had to rely on my admins for help. Let’s be real, I was completely over my head with this. I constantly felt like I was doing nothing as owner and that I didn’t deserve to be there. On my last day of being owner, me and a couple of admins were in talks with the past owner and I again got told to “shut up” just like when I first became an admin. This cemented it for me that I wasn’t at all respected despite working hard and doing the best I could most likely due to my age (I was the youngest admin). I told the admins just after that that I was leaving, made my announcements, did the necessary stuff and left the server.

At first I felt happy and freed that I no longer to had the pressures of being staff but then a hate post was made targeted at me. The post claimed that I was blackmailing the previous owner and that I had stolen server funds. Thanks to a good friend of mine facing her trauma and messaging the poster, it was debunked and removed. But sadly, the damage was done thanks to no announcement of it being fake news and I completely stopped being associated with flowerbed.

Or so I thought. The person mentioned just before that helped get my post removed messaged me saying how they were being bullied in the staff team and that she no longer felt welcome by those in charge. Like me, they had been staff for 2 years as well. It got so far that they left the staff team after being bullied, gaslit and lied to. This is when I broke my “no association rule” and message the person in charge letting them know that this was no an okay thing to do and that under no circumstances would I return or help them in future.