#findingthejoy

Feeling like royalty 👑 #findingthejoy #happy2021 https://www.instagram.com/p/CJfi4iJFa6x/?igshid=1wcft1xaaeum0

(DNRS people I tried to avoid specifics but this might be triggering? 🧐Just wanted to put this FYI 🤗😘) Not so very long ago a trip to town by myself was scary. What would my body do? I was alone…what if something happened? And while I’m not saying I was stress free and fear free(I’m a work in progress) the amount of my brain power devoted to those thoughts was blessedly small this day. And even when the first few thoughts came. I thought “Even if my body does something I can handle it.” Since starting #DNRS one of the biggest blessings has been being able to handle things. Not in a I never have bad days or my challenges never scare me way. But it’s not gone back to “that” place. When I crashed my body was terrifying. The things it was doing to me were terrifying. AND I HAD NO CONTROL. And it was horrific. BUT while there are many challenges and mountains left to climb. I’ve climbed a lot these last six months. And having somewhere and something to do when those challenges come….To be actively working toward my own healing in such a brain way. That’s a gift straight from my Jesus. That’s made all the difference. That’s replaced fear, confusion and despair with clarity, hope, and purpose. And little by little…it’s making ALL the difference.

Today had a rather stressful part of it. But we decided to take a walk. ☀️Today the stress and fear and all the things will NOT have the final word. Today I will remember our walk. And how the tree stump looked like a fairy castle, and how that glen thing is clearly were the werewolves would hold a meeting, and the way Mom fell in a snow bank and then I fell trying to get her out. And the resulting laughter. Today had stress and fear and that’s okay. Because that not the only thing today had and I’m so grateful to Jesus we took the time to chase those other things. Even for a few minutes.