#findinghappy

If you are suffering from binge eating disorder or you feel out of control of your eating habits - taking steps to better yourself are simple. Corporations and even people want you to feel like it’s so hard that you have to pay them to help you. That is not the case. Repeat after me:

"I want a home. A place to put out my pillows and to adorn with candles and picture frames. Yet if I zip closed my bags and shut the cupboards, I don't exist here.

I am purely a fragment of your imagination, a dream you hold onto, the closest thing to unconditional love you have ever known. However, I hide in the shadows of your own self-loathing, creating an endless loop of not being enough.

I want to be your home, your safe space. But you don't know how to release your trouble to be shared and carried for you - to never stand alone through anything. You battle on your own while I watch you self-destruct and drown in puddles and clouds.

I am gasping for the chance to be me with you by my side, but I don't even know where you are anymore.

And I don't know if I can keep looking, I'm starting to get afraid of the dark. "

Big hugs to all my American friends or anyone who feels scared and uncertain about the future no matter what country you are in.

The hate seems extra loud right now, but we must remember there is love.

I'm going to take breaks at night from following the news. I work in the news so I can't stick my head in the sand. Nor do I think people should do that. You have to take care of yourself, but staying informed is important.

But I'm going to spend my evening reading and writing romance. I signed up for another writing course. I will watch TV but I really want to focus on the positive. I suspect I'll watch a lot of Hallmark Christmas movies all year round. I'm going to try to balance out the hate and fear with love and hope.

I'm in charge of my own happiness and this is going to be a hard year for personal reasons and now for news reasons. I'm going to fill myself up with romance, comfort and happiness and remind people not everyone is awful.

Saturday, September 24th:

(exclusive): Fullmetal Alchemist: "The Final Alchemy" (netflix, live-action, ~2hrs+25mins)

(streaming twice weekly): Little Women (netflix)

(original made-for-TV movies): "Revenge for My Mother" (LIFE, earlier, 2hrs), "Fly Away With Me" (HALL, 2hrs), "A Royal Seaside Romance" (GACFam, 2hrs), "Dying For a Crown" (LIFE, 2hrs++), "Hall Pass Nightmare" (LIFE, later, 2hrs)

(other highlights): Red Election (OVAtion), Finding Happy (BounceTV, dramedy series premiere)