#finding satisfaction

My soul shall be satisfied as with marrow and fatness, and my mouth shall praise You with joyful lips. Psalm 63:5  Eating food is something that people love to do. Eating a meal that is cooked to near perfection is a desire many have. People will find that restaurant that usually will cook a meal to near perfection. When they sit down to eat the meal they are fully satisfied, until they eat too…

All the labor of man is for his mouth, and yet the soul is not satisfied. Ecclesiastes 6:7 Going through most towns throughout America, and probably many other nations, one will see restaurants all over the city. Often there will be a section of town in which there are several blocks of just restaurants and nothing else. People love to eat food of every style and have it available for them.…

or, because scumbag brain can be clever, it’s also suggesting that maybe, just maybe i might be an ok writer, but in that case i should feel bad about how bad i am at promoting my fics. although, scumbag brain then reminds me, to promote my fics more would be equal to begging for attention and that, it thinks, is just sad. 

if i were truly good at what i do, scumbag brain says, praise would naturally follow.

scumbag brain knows it’s wrong. i know it’s wrong. i know no amount of likes or comments will ever feel like it’s enough, no achievement will ever make me feel like i am enough, because the bar keeps rising and there will always be a new goal to strive towards. this is just human nature, to never be quite satisfied. i know this. i know it. 

and i know praise does not necessarily correlate with quality. i know the satisfaction i want needs to be found in the act of writing itself. i know that. i know. 

So, I’m seeking out

An inspired, joy filled life 

Vibrant energy 

I hope this new start, into a new week, comes filled with promise. 

Some random thoughts today: Finding Satisfaction

So. I’m supposed to be cleaning my house and doing some studying today, but I was really hit with the Word, and I wanted to write it down for future reference… so I thought I might as well blog it, since I haven’t done it in a while… You know that story in the Bible about the rich man who comes to Jesus and is like “what do I need to do in order to inherit everlasting life?”, and Jesus tells him…

Is that the question you are asking yourself?

After achieving all that you wanted to achieve, after reaching the place and position in your life that you wanted to reach, after having the money you always wanted to have, after having a name and a fair amount of fame in your life, after having tried all that you wanted to try to make your life happier – are you still unsatisfied? Or maybe you have achieved nothing in life and feel you are a 'nobody' in this life and so are unsatisfied. In pursuit of satisfaction you may have tried everything possible - being with family, hanging out for endless hours with friends, movies, drinking, smoking, drugs, pornography and maybe even sex! But you still feel an emptiness that nothing can fill, a longing no one can satisfy. You feel you are still missing something.

You feel that your life is worse now than before and there seems to be no purpose or meaning to your life!

Our Hearts are made for God. Our lives are made for God, our creator. Nothing that we do can ever satisfy our hearts fully…because it was made for God and God alone can satisfy us. He created us and we were made for Him, to love Him and worship Him but instead we just 'use' Him for our benefits – all we want from Him is blessing, protection and prosperity! But as long as we stay that way we will continue to be empty, lonely and unsatisfied. In the Bible, in Jeremiah chapter 2 and verse 13 God says,

'My people have committed two sins: They have abandoned me - the fountain of living water. And they have dug for themselves cracked cisterns that hold no water at all'.