#final?

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La tristeza de estar sin poder estar. El dolor del sueño roto, desgarrado, destrozado. De despertar a una realidad ignorada. Algo inevitable que cae por su propio peso.

Que hay luz, pero la noche es gris, oscura y sin sentido ni sabor. Pasan las nubes, cubren la luna siempre lejana que por eones me iluminó. Y ahora, tristemente habituada y abandonada, no veo a un palmo de mi.

El tiempo inexorable, cruel y siempre corriendo me dejan su marca y recuerdo, alertando de una realidad que no quiero aceptar. Que siempre estuvo ahí a la vuelta de un beso mal dado, acechando una felicidad tan frágil como real. Y fue tan real.

Ahora se precavida y que el universo te vuelva a esconder del mundo, que cada noche sea una mentira en un colchón de plumas flotando entre lágrimas.

La certeza de haber errado, de un deseo equivocado. No poder devolver el tiempo y no haber entrado, gritar "alto" a tiempo y habernos evitado tanto dolor, tanta trizteza, haberte dejado cerrar esa puerta que abriste y que tantas veces me renegaste haber dejado abierta para mi.

Y no veo a un palmo de mi.

Yo te deseo, te anhelo, te sueño, pero no lo vale si te daño. Eres mi fantasía cumplida, mi deseo anhelado, mi sueño realizado. Pero no lo vale... si me daño.

Dejemonos de tantas estupideces.

No agonizaré porque prefieres a otra en lugar de mí.

Tampoco dejaré de respirar ni de sentir por no tenerte conmigo.

Ni voy a suplicar que te quedes.

No te voy a persuadir para despedirme de ti con otra noche.

No, no le hagamos a la pendeja.

No me voy a morir porque no me quieras.

AN: To catch up links are here ONE TWO THREE FOUR 

Another thing as well, there is a sequel to this series and wondered how either feel about this series continuing on. Let me know in the comments or even send an ask or however.

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Michael handed you a present, the first is from Gabriel.

As expected you love the gift he has given you which is the Loki Helmet and scepter.

Second is Deans gift which is the nail polish set, nail art brushes and dotting tools. You thanked him for the gift which he proudly accepted.

Third is Sams gift which is the nail art pens, nail polish remover and the makeup sponges. You thanked him for those as well and couldnt be more happier for the nail polish kit from them already because you really needed and wanted them.

Krissy gift to you is an Itunes card along with a Star Wars mug set.

“I saw the mug set and knew I had to get them for you” Krissy says with a smile on her face

“I really love this, thank you so much” you thanked for the awesome gifts and she knew you wanted them.

Aiden’s gift to you is a gift card from StarBucks along with a nail polish rack he has made for you.

“Aiden, thank you so much” you said while giving him a hug.

“You are very welcome, I knew you needed a place to store your very huge collection of nail polish” he says while he still has you in his arms.

“I didnt know you can make a thing. Thats very innovative Aiden” Michael says as he looks to him. He is very impressed with his carpentry skills.

Michael and Lucifer look to the gift Aiden has given you and didnt realize there would be such a thing. They are happy he made that for you, now Michael wouldnt have to see those things laying around now.

Josephine’s gift to you is a gift card from Barnes and Nobel along acrylic paint that you have always wanted to try while painting the manicures.

You thanked her for the much needed gifts you have been wanting.

Adams gift is The Hobbit series which you absolutely loved.

“Adam these are great and something that I have always wanted to get. Thank you so much” you got up from your chair and gave him a hug for the thoughtful gift.

Lucas gift to you is a drawing he did for you on The Avengers in chibi form.

“Lucas this is so awesome, I have always wanted one of your paintings on canvas” you thank him while being completely grateful he has given you a 16x20 canvas.

“I wanted to save the best for last. This gift is from Castiel” Michael says as he hands you the present.

You tore away the wrapping paper which revealed a 16x24 portrait of your late mother. You begin to tear up and looked to Castiel right away.

“Thats you Bumblebee, you and mom” he says with a bright smile also beginning to tear up as well.

Its a portrait of your late mother who was eight months pregnant with you at the time. Castiel looked through the photo albums Michael had stored in the storage room.

When he stumbled upon the very picture is when he showed it to Lucifer and asked who she was pregnant with. He teared up at the picture and told him she was pregnant with you.

He went to the nearest store that printed out large portraits and got it framed.

You got up from your chair to give Castiel a big hug.

“Thank you so much. I love it” you tell him while a sob escapes from your mouth.  

You and Castiel remain hugging while everyone else is beginning to tear up as well.

Michael passes the picture around for all to see, your brothers tear up at the picture and remember the fond memories of mom.

“I am very happy you love the gift” Castiel says still keeping you in his embrace.

You slowly pull away from him. He towers over you and wipes away the tears from your face and you do the same with his.

Michael swore the both of you are twins, always looked out for each other and did things that were your best interest. But he knew that Castiel is the oldest one out of the both of you. He wiped away the tears that were streaming from his face.

“You are the best big brother a sister could ask for. All of you are” you tell him while looking to you older brothers.

“What about your gifts guys?” Gabriel asks looking to Michael and Lucifer.

“My birthday gift to Y/n is this” he looks around the room for the party he is throwing you.

“My gift is spending as much time with my baby sister from now on” Lucifer says keeping his eyes on you.

“Aww thats so sweet, Lucas give me your napkin” Krissy says while trying to hold in her sob.

Lucas hands her his napkin while rubbing her back with a smile on his face.

Adam finally sees his opportunity to talk to you in private, since everyone else is enjoying ones company. Talking about the interior design of the house and how they love the back yard.

“Hey Y/n, can I talk to you in private?” Adam taps your shoulder as you turn slowly to him from talking to Josephine.

“Yeah sure, we can step out since everyone is comfortable in the kitchen or living room.” You lead him away from the crowd and head outside while Michael and Dean turn their attention away from Lucifer and Sam.

“For sometime now I have had these feelings and didnt know how to express them. Basically I got shy and always brushed it a side and now I cant do that anymore. Y/n I have always had a crush on you for sometime and would it such a bad idea if you would go out with me?” he asks with a smile on his face that just brightens your day because no one has ever given you a bright smile such as his.

Michael and Dean look on from the kitchen window, they wanted to see what their siblings were doing in private.

“I cant hear what they are saying” Dean says trying to eaves drop.

“Well whatever it is, it wouldnt bother me” Michael says with a smile on his face.

Lucifer looks to where Dean and his brother are standing.

“Whats going on?” he ask standing between them trying to see what they are looking at.

“I had no idea and I definitely wasnt expecting this. As for the going out part um yeah I dont think that would be a bad idea, I mean I have had a crush on you for sometime as well” you admit to him as you shy away from him.

He lifts your chin to pull you gently closer to him and gives you a kiss.

“I cant see this anymore” Lucifer says as he tries to walk out of the kitchen to stop the both of you.

“Lucifer stop. You are just going to embarrass the poor girl” Michael says as he holds him from going any further out the door.

“Yeah I knew that was going to happen sooner or later” Sam says looking away from the kitchen window.

“What? And no one told me this why?” Dean whips his head to his brother why he hasnt told him anything.

“Because you have loose lips, dont know how to keep secrets” he says while taking another bite of his cake and enjoying every minute of it.

“No I dont. Im the best at keeping secrets” Dean says while taking a sip of his beer

“Liar” Lucifer says from the other side of the counter

Adam’s and your brothers begin laughing at Dean while he leans against the counter and isnt amused by the whole thing.

You pull away from him slowly while your eyes are still closed.

“Yeah I definitely wasnt expecting that” you say as Adam has a smile on his face looking to you adoringly.

“I wanted to make sure your birthday is extra special. Happy Birthday” he says while entwining your hands together and that just felt right to you.

The both of you enter the house while everyone stops to look, your brothers Castiel, Gabriel and Lucifer dont look amused.

“Looks like I got some explaining to do and tell them not to kill you” you tell Adam as you walk away from him.

Dean and Sam walk closer to him with wide smiles.

“Am I getting out of this house alive?” Adam asks looking away from the glares.

“Dont worry about it. Im pretty sure Michael and Y/n will get them to stop over reacting.” Dean says as he pats him on the back.

“Its about time, after how many years of talking about her” Sam teases while elbowing Adam to his side

“Years? Again why am I the last one to know?” Dean asks while whipping his head towards his brothers.

“You got loose lips man, cant keep anything a secret” Adam replies while going into the kitchen to get something to drink.

Dean glares to both of his brothers and follows Adam into the kitchen to get another beer.

“Lucifer, Gabriel and Castiel stop it. Can you guys just let me have this one thing?” you tell them.

“We just dont want you getting into something you are not comfortable with thats all” Lucifer says with concern.

“Im comfortable with him and please dont worry so much. I can handle this” you tell them while they nod and to your relief they will get used of having Adam around the house more often.

Michael comes to stand with his siblings and thats when you begin to worry on how he will react, you look to him in hopes he will not banish you from seeing Adam.

“Dont worry, Im ok with you and Adam. Plus he is a really good kid” Michael says and your surprise he has accepted the both of you.

They all spread out to entertain the guests as you look at the people in front of you and couldnt be more happier for this moment. You had your brothers who will always be there for you no matter what.

You have found someone who has a kind heart like Castiel, a sense of humour like Gabriel, the protectiveness like Lucifer and who is accepting like Michael. You have found all the traits you could ever want in a person to have within one.

You werent expecting Adam to come along into your life or you werent expecting anything at all. Your brothers caught you off guard by pulling something off so quickly and you knew deep inside that they would pull through. You love the people in your life and will cherish the ones who have entered your life.

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