what has absolutely rounded out my first full year living in mtl
strange enough t say but i am white passing and i have the utter conffidence, posterity and total privledge for the confidence to go and live how and whither i choose to in this big open city
being white (toned in pallor)does not neccisate this but it certainly helps - ppl in this city fuckin got me. sov to invite me. max with the fries. claudia to come. they do, verily, at the end of it all. they got me. and i trust them deeply.
i am asexual, and i live my life according to life~ and sexuality the way i feel it, secondary despite the sensulatity i naturally bring. getting in front of myself - knowing myself too well does not help my state of things
and another thing -- no body sees me. I ought to stop thinking anyone sees me because no body does. Not even - and especially myself. I do not see me.
