Marital Trial Run (Pt 1)
In a nutshell, I'm engaged now and living together with my future husband. I love with all my heart. Sometimes though, loving your life as a whole can be a different matter entirely.
My fiance has Crohns and has worked in the restaurant industry since he started working as a teen. Around the time we started dating, I could tell that the wheels behind his head was turning about what could be - not just with us but with the other aspects of his life. He's talented: voice-acting, poetry, wood working, refurbishing knives, and even dabbling with tattoo artwork. His creativity is incredible to me.
Fast-forward to today, and he went from line cook to kitchen manager; salary; paid vacation; and 3 day weekends. But if you understand Crohns, you know that a 28 yr old body has the aches and pains of someone in their late 40s from the chronic inflammation. He wanted to leave so badly these last few months for not just his pursuit of happiness but knowing full well that he wouldn't be able to keep up long term. Also like people with Crohns, this could make you feel like a victim to circumstance. He's not a victim but I can just tell that he's scared that he's getting closer and closer to being one as he gets older.
Mental health aside (and being a little overweight), I don't understand that fear and I don't try to understand. I listen. I hold him. I pray for him. and I love him. *to be continued*
