#feeling uncertain

a lot of people think manifestation means feeling happy every minute. like if you're sad or frustrated, you're "blocking your blessings."

that's not true.

you're allowed to have low days. slow days. confusing days.

suppressing your real emotions doesn't make you a better manifestor—it just disconnects you from yourself.

what actually matters: you keep choosing a little bit of light, even when it's dim.

an affirmation to hold gently:

"I'm allowed to feel everything. My feelings don't stop my progress."

negative emotions aren't the enemy. they're information. they're part of being human.

the goal isn't to never feel bad. it's to not stay stuck there forever.

so feel what you need to feel. then, when you're ready, find one small thing that lifts you just a little.

gentle question: what helps you lift your mood gently when you're not at your best?

(no judgment. we all have our go-to comforts.)

TW: swearing, sad/depressing stuff, real life problems, etc.

Working Mother's Day was a major fucking bitch for me. I was pretty stressed on that day, but I am currently feeling the aftermath after working that weekend. WHY are people so fucking stupid fucking over restaurant workers and then act surprised when the places close down after workers get pissed? Are they ever going to realize what they are doing is hurting others?!?! One day, no restaurants will no longer exist for some reason and people will be limited to cook at home. I hate entitled bitches. If I am dating someone and they tip poorly, I will literally walk out. It is basically slapping my face with disrespect, since I am a restaurant host. (I describe that day using lyrics from Hazbin Hotel's "You Didn't Know". "What are we even talking about?" "What are you saying? Let me get this straight.." "You didn't know"). I barely had decent sleep. Napping didn't seem to help much, I tested.

The world is going to shit and I feel worthless at times. I often wished I was back in time where my autistic mind was still a child, where I didn't know shit was going on. I wanted to go back and not get hurt by stuff happening: wars, economy, pressure from society and shit, my own internal struggles of what I even want to do with myself. I have yet to get my driver's permit and license. I am trying, but I feel rushed. I want a child, but I don't feel ready. Yet, society is pressuring everyone to give birth like we are just cattle up for slaughter! Society and economy is going to shit and I feel like me not feeling ready is my fault for things going to shit. I don't know how I'll even raise a child. I want my shit together before I try. If I try to raise a child now, I will feel unprepared and uncertain for the future even more. Everything is so expensive and I still haven't gotten my own place yet (staying with my loving mom [she rocks]). I feel worthless at times.