#feeling low

It's so fricken hard to find/make friendships into your adult/young adult years

Like, I just want a companion to spend my time with and to talk to!

I want to go on and on about books, art, and literature.

I want to go down endless amounts of rabbit holes of my favorite movies and book adaptations with someone and spend hours talking about it to no end - not to an imaginary audience or to a wall

I want to deep dive on games and media and find someone who feels like we've been friends/companions forever, and we've somehow known each other all our whole lives

There are a LOT of reasons I relate to the creature, but one of them is the incessant loneliness of it all. It's not his fault Victor made him grotesque and, yes, although he did some horrible things to some innocent people, it's the idea that he was just so lonely and so deprived of affection/companionship that he was practically proven on this idea that no one would see him as an equal. (I do not condone what he did, btw, I'm just stating an opinion)

Somehow, I feel that GDT's version hurt more on this concept because the Old Blind Man didn't just turn him away. He didn't freak out when The Creature came to him; He allowed him to share his food, fire, and friendship. He taught him and enjoyed his company before the hunters and wolves came to ruin it all.

Elizabeth wasn't scared of him. She EMBRACED him! She found her missing piece in the world through him, and he found a form of compassion and companionship through her, yet, again, it was all ruined by humanity's gaze.

The end is just as bittersweet, but also a reminder to keep going despite all the heartache.

Victor tells the Creature to live; enjoy life; make your place in this world, but we as the audience (and even The Creature, himself) knows that will be hard for him. Yes, the Creature can go anywhere he wants in the world, but he's still going about it alone. GDT gave us hope that he might find someone, it is possible, but there will be turmoil with it all.

And, I think that's the message to all of us lonely monsters. Yes, you might be lonely. You might be extremely lonely, but you have to have faith in a concept.

Hope.

If you have hope, if you strive to find the very best in yourself, then you will find a companion. The journey will be long. It will be painful. However, with hope, maybe you, dear Creature, can find a companion lucky enough to love you just for who you are.

Whether you are an Elizabeth or a Creature, you will find your match - you just have to believe and have faith and hope. It doesn't have to be romantically, either. It can even be platonically.

And... that's what I'd like to believe myself 🖤

When your Jester's feeling low, bring it to a Dolly station to recharge. XD

Kinda inspired by Her Dolly and that comic where Pomni goes to Kinger after being overwhelmed by the other Circus members, as well as those comics about needing to be around your lover to recharge. Especially with Pomni being the shy anxious introvert if the two and stuck in an overstimulating digital hell with people who can be ALOT I imagine this happens quite a bit.

someone to stand with me when I am too afraid to move forward, showing the calm that I cannot feel.

to hold me when i feel like i am breaking apart, not to stop me from falling but to show that even when I do they are there to hold the pieces.

to stay even I cannot get out of bed, when the darkness weighs like a rock I cannot move.

for someone I turn to when the life feels too cruel and unkind to live.

Is it too much to ask for?

To LOVE me for who I am, even when I feel like I don't know myself.

MAYBE IT IS .

-🕸

My dear sweet baby Spiderweb... we hate this for you. It sounds miserable and our hearts are breaking for you.

But as we pet your hair and hug you like the metaphorical internet aunties we are... I can't help but think optimistically about this.

For you're in a huge time of transition! Your life is changing in such a fundamental way. You're cleaning house, ending relationships, and recognizing certain personal cycles.

Use this time for reflection. Try new things to see if you can break your established cycles and develop new, healthier habits and relationships.

We believe in you, little Spiderweb. Here's more on relationships and feeling alone:

A Simple Yet Life-changing Act of Kindness: Be Somebody’s Eliza

Use me like I deserve to be used.

I don't want to do that anymore. Enough is enough.

"The future belongs to those who believe in the beauty of their dreams." ᯓ ₊*✩‧ˎˊ˗