#feeling behind

I prioritize calmness, moving at my own pace, body awareness, and selective relationships.

the me

from before I met you,

but

I want her to know

how great

it felt

to love you

You’re not behind in life. There’s no schedule or timetable that we all must follow. It’s all made up. Wherever you are right now is exactly where you need to be.

Eight billion people can’t do everything in exactly the same scheduled order. We are all different with a variety of needs and goals. Some get married early, some get married late, while others don’t get married at all. What is early? What is late? Compared with whom? Compared with what? Some want children, others don’t. Some want a career, others enjoy taking care of a house and children.

Your life is not on anyone else’s schedule. Don’t beat yourself up for where you are right now. It’s YOUR timeline, not anyone else’s, and nothing is off schedule.

But I stopped caring about other people's timelines; maybe I'm meant for the "slow process." I don't want to rush myself just because others are already far ahead. I don't want to race. I am choosing to go with the flow.

the child who is 18

you were a child

and

you had a normal childhood

but…

there was something creeping there.

you were a child

but

you couldn’t understand

anything that was happening.

you were a child

but

they seemed to know something

you didn’t.

you were a child

but

you were a bad child.

you were a child,

who had two friends,

but

they had each other

and you had no one.

you were a child

but

you felt like a squirrel

amongst the birds.

you were a child

but

you didn’t know what

was wrong with you.

you were a child

and It was the most

lonely and isolating.

you are a child.

your friends have friends

in college

and