how about the song “can I have a ride home? I’m at a party and I don’t know snybody” by carpetgarden for keefitz?
oo okay this is an excellent opportunity!! I've looked at this song for keefitz before (which you can find in my songs masterpost) but there are more lines from the song that I didn't get to talk about that I do now!
Immediately, given the separation that the two of them have experienced throughout the course of the series, this line stood out: "But now I've got, my own ride home / Away from a boy whose parents know." Like!! It's about how they used to rely on each other, be there when they needed to be. When one of them faltered, the other would step in, support them, get them through it. They were the very first person they went to, no one else. But now, they have their own ride home. They don't need each other the same way anymore. They have different support systems, different people they turn to and rely on. Gradually, they are moving further and further away from each other, wishing they weren't but neither of them able to make the move it would take to prevent it. Instead of confiding in each other, leaning on each other, they let this animosity grow as they both try to pretend nothing is happening. As for the "whose parents know" part, that could mean a lot of things. In this instance, I'm assuming it's Keefe commenting on how Fitz's parents used to be like parents to him, how they knew him better than his did. And how they're just watching this separation between the two of them.
That was more about Keefe, but I think there's a line that fits Fitz well: "And I'm sorry for all the things i said." we see him say something similar to Sophie at least once throughout the series as he apologizes for yelling at her and blaming her for things happening. So, it stands to reason that this is something he could say to Keefe as well. I'm not sure exactly how well this one fits, but I do think it applies to them to some extent. In this case, it could be interpreted as Fitz apologizing for what he said not because it was bad, but because it wasn't what they needed, because he was holding back and letting them fall apart when he could've said something to try and fix it. So instead of apologizing for an action he took, something he said, he's apologizing for taking the wrong actions and not saying what he thinks he should have.
But! There's another line I want to look at for the both of them! The line, "I hope I don't get older," which has so many possibilities here. For keefitz, I think it's a way for them to try and hold on to the past, to who they used to be to each other. Because it was as they grew older that they fell apart, that they turned from each other. So if they don't get older, they can stay those kids who loved each other and were with each other, knew each other so well. It's not a desire for their lives to end as they are now, it's a desire to not loose who they were to each other. They are...so important to each other. They don't acknowledge it much anymore, instead just saying they're best friends automatically without going through the motions, but there was a time when it was true! When they were everything to each other. And now they're watching them leave each other, Keefe watching as Fitz becomes more and more of a Vacker, striving higher and higher towards that perfection accepted of him while Fitz watches Keefe crumble below him, undone and ravaged by his own life, two worlds apart. Their worlds were together when they were young, so they don't want to get older, don't want to watch each other turn into a stranger.
that's just how I interpret a few lines to fit them, so you're welcome to disagree! either way, thank you for the recommendation as it was really nice to go back over the song. I try to limit myself to three lines that I pick to share when I analyze them in the context of a character, so having the opportunity to go through more of the song was wonderful <33
