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I have a long and complicated answer for this! I'm going to give a bit of context as to what I do for a living first, because that does inform how I feel about some of the theories I've seen.

I work in the only hospital within 100 kms with an oncology unit, though some patients are travelling from over 500kms to be treated here. I am not a doctor, but I have been assigned to the oncology ward on occasion. I am NOT a medical professional, I am a wardsman who just sees a lot of people with cancer.

I don't think Pyro has leukemia, as we don't see him going for radiation therapy for it and he hasn't been deteriorating at a steady (or even really fast) enough rate. Before anyone goes 'this is the early 1900s he wouldn't have medicine-' He'd be dead then. But there were some treatments for it to delay it. Pyro doesn't use or mention those treatments, and knowing the type of media that Whitepine is there would have been a hint by now. Sure I'm metagaming but thats a part of analysis baby. (source for the treatments)

I am not sure about what illness he could potentially have. There are a few options, for my au I've written it as tuberculosis. TB does not cause vomiting, but I wanted a disease that I knew how to write, and I wanted one that would cause coughing up blood, because vampires. Also TB has a history of being linked to vampires through fiction, which is interesting. Also I legally had to get a TB vaccine to work at my hospital, and I will be damned if I don't do SOMETHING to tell people to get vaccinated against TB. I wont be alone GET VACCINATED.

Anyways, back to the main point. I'm unsure what illness Pyro could have, since the only symptoms we see are vomiting and a lack of appetite. The few I've heard thrown around have very little evidence in regards to what we see on screen, and because what we see has so little actual symptoms (he doesn't even seem all that tired, and any time he's distracted he's working, which isnt evidence-) that I don't want to throw any other ideas out there. I will say, based on the evidence I can see cyclical vomiting syndrome being a culprit behind why he is vomiting. However, it's not a life threatening disease, so if it was passed down from his mother to him, its not the COD for her.

If we want to assume that whatever Pyro has is fatal I would like to throw out blood poisoning/sepsis because it is a special interest and in some cases can cause vomiting. However, it has a similar issue to the leukemia theory in that he'd be dead by now, anyways. Please ask me about blood poisoning, not in regards to this just in general.

I will say, if we're going with a illness I do think that its more likely to be something like an eating disorder, since Mysti doesn't seem to be aware of it in ep 1. If it were an illness like CVS or TB I do think she would have known about it, but she seems surprised to see him awake. On top of that, he was running water to cover up the sounds of him throwing up, meaning that at the very least he didn't want anyone finding out, and he's done this before. I don't feel confident about it, since it happens in the morning before he had eaten for the day, which (according to research) isn't a typical way for bulimia to present.

I will admit that I adore the angst in Pyro inheriting something from his mother and Zombie having to watch him die the same way. i might write a fic about that if anyone wants me to this is a fun idea But now that that's out of the way: Have we considered that he's being poisoned?

Could be environmental, caused by lead paint (i would suggest arsenic green paint, however that had fallen out of comercial use in the 1890s iirc and whitepine seems to be a more upkept manor, I think it would have had a repaint by the time the story starts) or it could be a deliberate poisoning.

Again, very little evidence pointing towards it, and we'd need a motive and a culprit and a means to do it. It would be a conspiracy, which I wouldn't put it past Ivory to write, since thats how I feel Mysti's death might be, but it would be complicated to cover up.

many such ideas.

I used to be super empathetic too, and I know empathy isn’t actually that important but I actively lost the ability to feel it and now I’m just sitting here listen to my girlfriend talk about being scared of going back to the psych ward and just Not Fucking Caring. It’s terrifying to look back on myself a few years ago and realize that if I were in this situation I would be feeling worried for her!! But I’m not now! And what? It took just a year and a half for me to make such a sharp turn like this? Now I’m completely lacking empathy and shifting blame and manipulating my words to make me more likable? How did I get here.

Plus I mentioned the girlfriend thing, I’m aroace and dating her and I just. I’m so tired because I don’t think I’m getting enough even if I’m not giving enough but I am the Worst Person EVER to be in a relationship with. Like cmon. It’s so dumb too like she implied once I was bad at video games that she was good at and now I’m actively trying to stop myself from hating her guts.  does anyone hear this I feel so stupid for thinking like this and yet I just can’t stop

I don’t have anyone to support me. My mom’s great but she believes all narcs are evil, I’m the most educated out of all my friends I can’t go to any of them, and I don’t trust my therapist with ANY of this, I’m just.  Alone. I’ve done a lot of shit alone but I can’t fucking do this by myself.

…UGH sorry for the word vomit I honestly didn’t know I was this distressed over this. If I may I’d like to claim the feather emoji

first time here, hoping for support, and very sorry for how ramble-y this all is, 🪶

It sounded like someone set off a firework in the house!

Just a big loud bang. Right inside the house!

I wonder how colourful it was

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It was pretty close wasn't it?

Have you ever been close to a firework, Thomas?

Does the sound bring back memories?

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“I don’t like fireworks..I don’t like them.”

[*Thomas was in the middle of eating his burger, shaking slightly but trying to focus on the delectable thing in his hands*]

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Due to the nature of your other ask(s), I'm assuming you're talking about my canon here, and not all the friends I have right now.

I genuinely admire Noelle for her patience. I genuinely don't know how she put up with me. She's an awesome friend. And also, she's a pretty great gamer.

I admire Kris for their ability to plan pranks, and, as much as I don't like to admit it, their superior gaming skills. They're also pretty smart

Eh it’s not explicitly stated but I’ll tag it anyway to be sure.

[insert character] thinks of Chance whenever they see the word “chance”.

Chance also being a normal mundane word should be tapped into more often for angst (or maybe I’m blind but I haven’t seen any yet). I think there’s so much potential for stories where a character with a name that also happens to be a normal word haunts the narrative.

-feather anon (if this isn’t taken)

me too me too... i yhink of chance forsaken when i hear the word chance... forsaken brainrot

i absolutely love that actually. it definitely has angst potential.

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