Ace-friendly SH Fics: Masterlist
Alrighty folks so strap in, here is the first round of my ace-friendly Shadowhunters fic rec list! Itās so hard to have to navigate fics that should have a canon asexual character, always just vaguelyĀ expectingĀ disappointment (cough Raphael). So. All of the fics on this list are ace-friendly in some way or another, whether itās tagged/talked about or even intended by the author or not- they do NOT invalidate Raphaelās asexuality (using the definition of asexuality as not experiencing sexual attraction, irrespective of feelings toward sex. And while this list does have some aroace!Raphael, it is specifically for ace!Raphael)Ā Thisāll cover everything from ace-friendly smut for my smut-inclined friends (meaning Raphael is not sex-repulsed in those, but still ace) to platonic/solo stuff for those of my friends who are less romance-inclined. I also threw in some headcannons of other SH characters. Let me know what you all think! (Things not under theĀ āsmutā category do not have any written descriptions of sex to the best of my memory and brief scan-throughs, but please let me know if thereās something in the general list that should be under smut).Ā If youāre strongly sex-repulsed please use your usual discretion. (And everyone just please read the tags in general).Ā Ā One final note: keep in mind that this is just a collection of fics that are supportive of asexuality. While these are fics I personally enjoyed/read often, this list is not an endorsement of all aspects of the content (ie. the way other identities are handled, etc.) This list is meant to account for different tastes, just with the bonus relief of knowing asexuality is there. So, here we go!Ā
(Iām ridiculous and canāt do regular summaries; my comments on each rec- if any- are in the brackets):Ā
Saphael (without direct mention of asexuality but still unequivocally respecting it):
The Heart of An Adventurer by DustinMcDreamyĀ
Skyrim/Dark Ages AU: Simon is a simple tavern worker, but he wants more than his boring life. An adventurer stays the night at their Inn and Simon is enamored with both the adventurer and his wonderful life.Ā
(so this is a lovely person who Iāve been collaborating with and they are honestly such an ally and their stories are wonderful, this one is probably my favourite but you can check out their page for other stuff)
put the boom boom into my heart byĀ idontshaveforsher_yesyoudo
"Or maybe something like soulmates always sneeze at the same time and I cant be sure but me and this kid in my French class just sneezed at the same time are we soulmates or was it a coincidence (proceed w character trying to make themselves sneeze around said person to see whatās what)"
or, the one where simon hates his life and Mr. Immaculate Hair doesn't make it better, until he does
Forgotten at Dusk by halfmast Simon finds Raphael wandering around Manhattan barefoot - things go downhill (uphill?) from there.
(So I think this is the only one Iāve included thatās an unfinished WIP and is also NOT explicitly laid out as asexual- because I canāt guarantee it wonāt change in later chapters. It also has one chapter left and hasnāt updated in a while so if that rattles you, donāt touch. But itās beautifully written and sweet and a neat concept, and so far doesnāt contradict asexuality!)
before I ever met you byĀ izzyasavestheday (stilessexual) āIām missing something,ā Simon went on, voice cracking. āIām missing someone but no matter how hard I try I just canāt fucking remember.ā
Can you find me someone to love? by domoiswatchingyou
They all have one thing in common: they are all bad at love, even when some of them love to deny it. (Saphael and Malec AU WIP) (And I gotta say guys, I beta for this lovely person- and thus actually have a hand in writing the ace parts- and they are a wonderful individual. Asexuality not mentioned as of yet but will be upcoming).Ā
baby, Iām not made of stone byĀ izzyasavestheday (stilessexual)
āDid I ever tell you that we feel everything? The clan, I mean. If I focus enough, I can tell you whoās sad and whoās angry and who hasnāt been sleeping properly. I can tell you whoās been having nightmares. There are no secrets here.ā
i'd spend all nine lives with you byĀ alaricrodriguez
simon gets himself turned into a kitten and raphael can't find his fledgling
(this is just little and cute and thereās no explicit effort made to make Raph ace but I guess Iām kind of cheating since itās from Simonās POV and doesnāt come up at all but itās not contradicted and I love this fic so)
echo series byĀ izzyasavestheday (stilessexual) āRight,ā Raphael brought himself to his feet, smooth as anything. āLetās go.ā Simon gapped up at him, āGo where?ā Raphael rolled his eyes, impressively, (like he didnāt care, like he didnāt care about Simon, but he was here and they both knew neither of them could ever stop caring no matter how much they continued to hurt one another) and heaved a spectacular sigh. āHome.ā -
Saphael (ft. actual conversations about asexuality/the word is spoken):
Somebody out there byĀ mckvch (RaiseYourVoice)
(Road trip fic, which is classic of course. PLEASE read the tags. Could be interpreted as demi/gray ace but I identify asĀ just ace and it fits me just fine. This is one of the first fics I read coming into this fandom, and the first one that made me fall in love with Saphael, and itās got an insanely special warm fuzzy place in my heart) (Also 27 chapters, so how can you complain about that???) The acing on the cake byĀ mckvch (RaiseYourVoice)Ā
āāOh, come on, puns are amazing! Tell me your sexuality and Iām sure we will have at least one shirt thatāll appeal to you.āĀ Simon patted the pile of shirts in front of him and smiled hopefully at Raphael who really wanted to disagree and tell the boy he was wasting his time here but he couldnāt bring himself to.ā (pride!fic) (this author has some of my favourite ace!Saphael fics ever, and like an endless supply of them with everything under the ace/aro umbrella) A Lesson in Love series by Malteser24 āSimon thinks it will be difficult to adapt to their new situation - in which they don't actually hate each other - and Raphael can't imagine their date as being anything but awkward, considering how out of his depth he is when it comes to dating.Instead, they actually have a fairly good time.ā like a love song on the radio by eversallĀ
Simon's a bartender, Raphael plays the piano, and somehow they manage to communicate to each other that yeah, they both want this.Ā
Rock Solid Panda by OhHolyHell
(Made for pan pride day, āRaphael is actually a thoughtful softieā (and so is Simon!) (ft. ace puns)) Disasters that lead to pretty boys (are worth it) by gayinsight "My friend is out of town and Iām supposed to be taking care of her pet fish but it died and you work at the pet store help me find one that looks the same so she wonāt notice!" (this one has a hella flirtatious Raphael making some jokes that imply sexual attraction but it doesnāt actually HAVE him experience it and itās honestly one of the cutest, funniest little Saphael fics ever so)Ā
if i ever had your number, i think i would use it byĀ eversall
āYou ā why is your number in the Pandemonium bathroom?ā
(classic meet-ugly sorta vibe) I am a pile of bricks and you are holding a sledgehammer by LiviKate āSo when do I get tucked safely back under Raphaelās wing?ā āYou wonāt,ā Lily said, wandering over to the other side of the room to get her own drink. āRaphael has a new fledgling now. Youāre stuck with me.ā Or, when Simon isn't the newest vamp in the clan, he has a hard time sharing.
Promised It All, But You Lied by sirknightmordred As Raphael lies in a magical coma that can't be cured, Simon thinks back to pivotal moments in their relationship. (There IS a warning for fairly descriptive sexual assault, but itās actually surrounded by bolded words in the story so easy to skip. And it does not attribute his ace-ness to the assault, but itās also rep for those of us who are ace AND have negative experiences with sexual violence)Ā
Sing me a Song byĀ Margo_96
the one where Simon teaches Raphael's younger brother how to play the guitar and Raphael is not happy. or maybe he doesn't mind it that much (Okay so this is one that kind of equates asexual to ānot wanting sex,ā and Raphael does have very strong infatuation so not so much representative of romantically-fuzzy people. Hooweeverr, itās cute af, and I like Simonās initial reaction to the coming out, and itās 8 chapters, so worth a read for sure) until iām not afraid byĀ angelblooddemondust
(Trans!Simon (which I canāt speak to at all) ft ace!supportiveRaph (which I can)) (read the notes) -
Saphael (ft. smut):
Head is spinning thinkingĀ ābout by LiviKateĀ
Simon and Raphael enjoy their time together, even if Simon doesn't really know what to call it.
Or, gratuitous vampire sex with some ace-spectrum themes because there's not enough Asexual Raphael.
(This is a lot of blood drinking, which is not my fav, but itās brilliant in terms of what a sex-positive ace might look like and how they experience sex- itās from Raphās POV, and itās quite good overall imo. Probably my favourite ace!smut)
Just Pull me Closer by SomeWaywardDaughterĀ After spending an irritating patrol with Clary and Jace, Simon just wants to get back to Hotel DuMort and Raphael. (so Iāmma be honest I was in a pretty sex-repulsed mood while doing this part so I didnāt fully reread it to be sure itās safe but itās literally written by a self-professed ace author and I did see reference to the aceness amidst the smut so Iām pretty sure weāre good)
What is Desired by DustinMcDreamy (Iām not going to include descriptions for smut because many of them are potentially triggering in nature for sex-repulsed friends, but this one is a dom/sub sort of thing, pretty hella kinky so buyers beware. Itās messy on the ace-front (the author started the series before Raphael came out, and had to add it retroactively) but thereās some good lines in there in particular for gray ace or demi folks who are experiencing lust for someone for the first/only time, etc.) chasing starlight byĀ mostlikelydefinentlymad There was no set destination, simply one agreed upon prerogative: drive. (So this isnāt technically smut insofar as thereās no actual explicit description of sex, itās basically all blood drinking, but itās a heavily implied metaphor and Raphaelās blood lust for Simon is very reminiscent of sexual attraction, so that part kind of doesnāt reflect how I feel as an ace person. BUT Raphael does not actually experience sexual attraction, the story is quite lovely, and the author is quite lovely as well, so Iād still recommend it)
Caught. byĀ Kalifa (Lol this is short and not super smutty either but itās like #sexindifferentfeels all the way)Ā -
Raphael and Other Characters ( back to no smut):
love comes in at the eyeĀ by prettydizzeed
The first time he asks Raphael out, Raphael scoffs.
(A Raphael/Meliorn fic- and I gotta tell you I didnāt even ship these two but the characterization is beautiful and the handling of the asexuality is a dream)
maybe we're just gonna live forever, maybe heaven's a mistake by prettydizzeed
Raphael presses the pendant into his palm and looks at Magnus. āHow did you become okay with it?ā Magnus gives a flourish of his hand. āAfter the whole āhalf demon blood, scorned by the earth as a monsterā thing, liking boys wasn't that big of a deal.ā He sees Raphael's expression and adds gently, āBut it's different for everyone.ā Raphael looks at his hands. Lets go of the cross. āHow do I become okay with it?ā Incompatible by NotEvenThat
Raphael wants to know why their relationship works for Jace. As with everything, Jace struggles to talk about his feelings and why Raphael Santiago makes him feel so safe. (I canāt even get over how much I love that this fic makes asexuality seem like a bonus rather than a burden in a relationship- which shouldnāt be rare, but alas)
landscapes by brightclam
(Another Raph/Meliorn, those seem to be popular! Ft. gender nonconforming Meliorn and the tagsĀ āAsexual Raphael Santiagoā āi shouldn't have to tag that but some of y'all demons ignore thatā which made me laugh for like 5 minutes)
- Arospec!Raphael/Romance not Mentioned:
Make Yourself at Home byĀ savannahrunes
Two occasions Raphael Santiago shows up at Magnus's door, each time with something quite important to say. (This is my favourite aroace Raphael fic ever and made me cry both times I read it. Also written by an ace author) (do yourself a favour and read this even if youāre not arospec- although that goes for all of them in this category) (he is legitimately 100% aro in this)Ā
Unnamed Soulmate AU byĀ http://parabatri-gonebabygone.tumblr.com
(So I couldnāt trace this back to AO3 or even the authorās most recent tumblr but itās so beautifulĀ and I love this fic so much and the author (in my limited opinion) did an amazing job of having an aroace soulmate dynamic and gah, yes)
Four Times Raphael Santiago Was Kissed, and the One Time He Kissed First by albabutterĀ
His mother should have had a house full of girls. Instead she ended up with him and his brothers and a rag tag crew of every teenaged hooligan in a five mile radius running through her home. She was quick to grab an ear but quicker to give a hug, and Raphael put up with it as well as could be expected. She gave hugs to the neighborhood boys and kisses to her sons, and the only silver lining was that she didnāt wear lipstick. (honestly this is one of my favourite Raphael fics in general, and I believe the author only intended for him to be ace in this but I definitely interpret it as at least aro-spec as well if not just straight-up aroace)Ā Whenās a monster not a monster? by scalira āHe had never heard about something like this before. You either liked the opposite sex or you lived in sin as someone who liked the same sex. But he had never heard of people just not liking any sex.He decided to just let it rest for now, pushing the worry aside till he at least graduated highschool. But then there was a friend, and his name was David.ā (*** Warning: there is a fairly sudden mention of oral sex near the beginning. And some descriptions of violence. But this is one of my favourite ace-fics in the way that it explains what asexual attraction feels like for me, and Raph is also Ā grey-homoromantic so bonus) (this author has lots of varying ace and demi/grayromantic/etc Raphael fics too to check out) Carpe Noctem by UMsArchiveĀ For decades, it seems like unlife couldn't get any better and nothing threatens to take all of that happiness away from Simon. Aside from the passing of time that slowly takes everything away from him. Almost everything. (Listed as demiromantic, but as far as I can remember doesnāt even have kissing by the end so it should be fairly aro-friendly)Ā
Maybe by mckvch(RaiseYourVoice)
ā Yeah, he definitely didnāt want to kiss girls, ever, but boys...not so much, either.ā (arospec Raphael with some ambiguousness about his feelings for Simon) It's Not a Date (Unless I Pay for Dinner) byĀ Ā Vitamin_Me Clary cancels their date last minute, but Simon ends up having a good time despite himself. (So I donāt think this author really intended on having Raphael be aro or even ace, but while Iām not aro and canāt be sure, I think this fic should be pretty safe even for people who are mildly romance-repulsed. Thereās definitely implications of feelings- especially from Simon- but really I interpret it as being this chill, mostly platonic, nice little fic that makes me feel pretty good when Iām sick of all the heavy romance stuff) 18. Play A Musical Instrument by GideonGraystairs
So this is just a tiny drabble amidst a sea of drabbles but I love it because itās one of the only fics Iāve seen thatās literally JUST Raphael, reflecting, by himself. It doesnāt say heās ace/aro anything, it just doesnāt have any romantic arc at all) -
ace!Alec Lightwood:
Accidental Fate by allonsyarielleĀ
There were two things Alec Lightwood knew about himself beyond a shadow of a doubt. The first was that he was gay. The second was that he does not like sex. Through a chance encounter with Magnus Bane, Alec learns about asexuality, and it opens his eyes to a new part of his identity. (okay so this one did sort of equate asexuality withĀ ānot wanting sexā but I still included it because I think itās a frank take on how it can feel to realize youāre asexual, and all of the negative emotions that can come with that) Sleepovers Arenāt Just for Kids by SomeWaywardDaughter Ace!Alec discovery his sexuality (written by an ace author) -
Others SH headcannons:Ā
Send My Love To Your New Lover by HornedQueenOfHellĀ
(This one is about ace!Etta, one of Magnusās old exes. It also does the ace=not wanting sex thing, but the author is ace-spec so itās got some perspective for sure.Ā And itās written so beautifully and such a lovely concept. **Warning for ace-phobia and brief sexual harassment) (I cried the first time I read this) El Hijo De Santa Muerte byĀ Gzmoii āHe stepped aside, letting Guadalupe in. She walked in with a careful nod, looking around at Magnusā loft. Magnus snapped his fingers behind his back, hiding the potions and other magical ingredients around the loft. Given that Guadalupe wasnāt a mundane, she wouldnāt be able to notice the subtle shift as everything around the room moved. Guadalupeās head snapped toward him, āWhat was that?ā She asked.ā (So this actually DOES have ace!Raphael, but Iām putting it here because it also has aro!Guadalupe Santiago, which is hella rad) (22 ch and counting)Ā
You Arenāt Broken by allonsyarielle
(Ace!Alec but also demiromantic!Magnus)
-- -- -- Alright, thatās it for now!Ā Hope you all got something out of this! If you are one of the authors listed here and you want your fic/name OFF the list, please message me. If you have written an ace-friendly fic that you want included, hmu and Iāll check it out. Depending on demand, Iāll hopefully be doing updated lists every so often, as well as spin-offs (for example, I have a small but growing list of Malec fics that just so happen to have really sweet comments about asexuality, or have ace!Raphael as a minor character). If you want to request any specific type of fic, please feel free to ask me, Iāve literally got folders overflowing. Have a lovely, ace-friendly day!Ā












