wonât you pick the pieces up (donât let me keep on walking on broken glass) [for my dearest @pasmonblogâ! an entirely overboard fulfillment of winterwitch; kiss by a campfire; *vague references to wandavision, the first episode of falcon and the winter soldier, and schittâs creek*]
Part II of my Wanda-centric series iâll have a cup of tea (and tell you of my dreaming)
and what if i could live like this - but not forever
and what if you could move the needle to a more forgiving song
and what if this was never really broken all along
but - for tonight - i'm sleeping with my television on
television | jack's mannequin
There's a story here, thereâs always a story. This story starts with the good doctorâs helpful suggestion that a machine that cycles through soothing sounds might help with the nightmares. You know, the ones Bucky doesnât have? Actually, she recommends an app he can download, but his phone needs to age a couple decades to be able to support the damn thing.
He's standing at the check-out of Atlantic Avenueâs Best Buy with three different types, already planning to chuck every single one in the garbage. A tropical rainforest is going to work miracles that the cityâs constantly blaring siren soundtrack canât?Â
A hand reaches from behind to tap one of his boxes, as a pleasant lilt he can almost place warns: âIf you leave this running all night, it dies after a week.â
âThanks. You use either of these?â He turns, holding the two that are still contenders out to his informant. And grinning like an idiot because he recognizes her. Her hair and her affect are both less fiery than theyâd been when heâd met her in Wakanda - her messy bunâs edging toward brown and her eyes have painful memories crammed behind them. But her expressionâs warm, slightly guilty, when she shakes her head.Â
âI have thisâ - Wanda touches number two - âbut itâs still in the box.â He wants to ask if sheâs okay, if thereâs an ass that needs kicking â not that heâs supposed to engage in that extracurricular anymore, and she sure as shit can take care of herself; heâs caught the news coverage, though â but she keeps going. âMy therapist tells me this only hinders my recovery, but - â She shrugs, passes him a plastic case with what looks like a family and a misspelled curse on its front â- I love it. Itâs comforting.â
âHas to work better than whatever crap I was about to buy.â
âI think so. You're welcome to judge for yourself. Iâm happy to start at the beginning again.â
They trade numbers on the sidewalk out front, he brings lattes to her apartment two nights later, and David drives out of town in Rolandâs truck as the sun rises.
Wanda's totally right, the doc lectures him about media immersion simply blocking his negative thoughts rather than eliminating them. He smiles serenely at her, says âBut I have two whole friends now! Arenât you excited?â and leaves Wanda a voicemail on his walk home: âWhenever we do season two, foodâs on me. Mental health should not, actually, be entertainment-dependent and Raynorâs not any happier about our combined coping skills than your guy.â
He knows sheâs got class at Fordham until seven-thirty, but sheâll call when she gets out.
They finish the series right as the semesterâs ending.Â
He hen-pecks his way through Wandaâs dictation of the final paragraph of her unit plan for her Educational Methods class.Â
[She'd started crying so hard at Davidâs âI am continuously impressed by youâ compliment to Alexis that there was no way in hell she could see her screen and heâd been afraid her laptop might end up with water damage, erasing all of her efforts in a flash.]
Once sheâs hiccupped one last citation at him and heâs saved her paper in four different places, he glances over at her. âThe docâs still bugging me about finding more sustainable sleep aids. She fails to understand the medicinal properties of the Rose family. And I basically filibustered her ass on the subject last week. Nothing.â Wanda laughs through her tears. âAnyway. I'm thinking of trying out the up close and personal version of ambient noise. You want to come camping this weekend?â
Wandaâs nose scrunches in disgust and her head slides from side to side, answering for her on its own. But what she offers next is a surprise: âI'm only coming because you canât afford to lose any other limbs, and I canât say that wonât happen if youâre alone.â
âWeâll start another show as soon as we get back,â he promises.
Which, judging by Wandaâs expression underneath her soggy hood, is a secret that she really wants to let him in on. Like he isnât already fully aware.Â
The fireâs somehow soldiering on despite the downpour, but theyâve got maybe five minutes before it gutters. âShould we admit defeat? Stay city couch commandos forever?âÂ
Wandaâs entire being lights up at his suggestion, and sheâd probably take flight right now if he wasnât around. âThank youâ she says instead, leaning over to frame his face between her wet palms and pressing her mouth to his.Â
âMolniya, if you were dying to go home that badly, all you had to do was say so. I can take a hint,â he tells her after theyâve spent several minutes otherwise occupied.
âThat, sir - â she smirks â - was for everything but this brilliant disaster of yours.â
And she might levitate a little on the way to the car.Â