#eye.

@exanimos

He is silent for a long time while Kakashi deals deftly with the cut on his arm. The gash is long and ugly, a stupid consequence of his own carelessness in battle, having underestimated the opponent. A lesson in pride. But there is also something to be said about long missions and how the exhaustion accumulates and bleeds into poor decision-making.

The teen finds comfort in the fact that it’s Kakashi who is tending to him, kneeling so closely, steadfast hands making light work. People never see this. His gentle firmness. The undercurrent of care—fear?—that lies beneath his meticulous nature and frosty ways. The bandage is tightened, forcefully—-Gai scrunches his nose in the littlest of winces.

There is a confession sitting at the tip of his tongue, and when his hard, vigilant gaze meets Kakashi’s worn eye, it falls out of his mouth without restraint.

“… I mastered the seventh gate.”

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𝐇𝐎𝐖 𝐃𝐎𝐄𝐒 𝐘𝐎𝐔𝐑 𝐌𝐔𝐒𝐄 𝐂𝐀𝐑𝐑𝐘 𝐄𝐌𝐎𝐓𝐈𝐎𝐍𝐒 ?

ANGER.     jaw clenching,    hands balling into fists,    teeth grinding,    yelling,    going non-verbal,    stuttering speech,    rushed speech,    slow concise speech,    rambling,    quiet,    arms crossing,    shaking head,    tearing up,    animated,    expressionless,    projects,    internalises,    vents,    withdraws,    passive aggressive,    direct,    physical outbursts,    verbal outbursts.

JOY.     easy smiles,    fighting back grins,    suppressed laughter,    loud laughter,    giggles,    chuckling,    smirks,    whole body laughs,    covers mouth when laughing / giggling,    throws head back when laughing,    slaps leg,    touches people around them when laughing,    looks down when laughing,    looks for eye contact when laughing,    sparkling eyes,    bubbly happiness,    quiet subtle happiness,    obnoxious happiness,    wants to spread joy,    quietly savours joy.

SADNESS.     crying,    bottling it up,    seeks distractions,    wallows,    meditates,    trains and processes,    avoidance,    seeks out comfort,    withdraws,    talks it out,    internalises it,    sad smiles,    depression naps,    uses alcohol,    uses drugs,    seeks out sources of joy,    fidgets with sentimental item,    sits in silence,    broods,    gets moody,    wants someone to share the misery,    tries to hide negative emotions,    nurtures others to make themselves feel better.

EMBARRASSMENT  /  SHAME.     blushing,    looking away,    rubbing at back of head,    covering face,    laughing nervously,    laughs it off,    overthinks,    lets it go,    self-deprecating humor,    deflects,    gets irritated,    smiles,    withdraws,    crossing arms over stomach,    crossing arms over chest,    hands in pockets,    shoulders sinking,    shrugs,    falling into silence until comfortable again,    talking a lot to compensate.

GUILT.     avoiding eye contact,    shoulders sinking low,    head hanging down,    crying,    chest aches,    lashes out,    internalises,    apologises,    deflects,    communicates,    withdraws,    grand gestures for forgiveness,    accepts fault easily,    punishes themselves,    martyrdom,    victim complex,    guilt complex,    healthy conscience,    internalises even after forgiveness,    seeking redemption,    moves on easily,    denial,    lack of guilt / conscience,    sorry they got caught more than caused harm,    can’t handle knowing they hurt others.

FEAR  /  ANXIETY.     trembling,    crying,    sarcasm / sass to cope,    rambles,    goes silent,    gets angry,    fidgeting,    clenching jaw,    picking at nails,    chewing at lip,    pulling at clothes,    adjusting jewellery / clothing,    swallowing thickly,    eyes widening,    over-reacts,    under-reacts,    calm,    logical,    panic,    irrational,    overthinks,    carefully analyses,    talks to themselves,    breathing exercises,    flight,    fight,    withdraw,    fawn.