#exposingmyveins

i don’t deserve this heart ache when all i am is human

i am trying to forgive myself.

desire may be the complete and utter end of me.

when i forget the sound of your laugh that’s when i’ll know you have completely left me.

i often think about how your words tasted to me. the things you would say i would drink like alcohol, sweet… made me feel warm. they would seep into my stomach and would settle to the bottom. but, in reality: it was poison. clouding my judgement, intoxicating my mind. i drank up your words like it was life saving medicine but truly, it was the death of me. the next time someone speaks to me like that i hope i recognize that underlying bitter taste and spit. it. out.

i feel so deeply, it is my curse and my gift. i feel so deeply, it is my greatest strength and weakness.

my pillows have felt more sorrow from me than any person will ever know.

i am quite fond of spring time. spring will bring hope. as the rain and the sun elicits new growth, so shall i.