#exploring self

Everything you seek is waiting inside you to be found, but only if you take the time to understand

Information Overload by Devika Haridas Today I asked my heartif what you were doing was alright?To leave a man you love like how the passenger poem grumbled on Spotify,I read about a man on man fighting for a close touch and I thought if competence is what is to be trained to that meatball,When a cancer moon wanes tonight you might as well call him back, said a friend online or brutally split…

“Washing” by Devika Haridas I have scrubbed plates since six —Sitting down, standing up —pipes, drains and tumblersFood scrapes and wishing bonesBlowing bubbles and sweeping ash from mirrors of my soul, my day and my face.I like these shining pots, squeak squeakpick those squeaking fingernails scraping in clean,that jolt of metal rushing into my brain,Then one day, washing them clean, The sunset…

To feel sunlight and golden, To kiss the autumn breeze To see the hummingbirds in my garden,Took me long enough,To see my hands and feel the buzz,Like the magic of germinated seeds,To love them, like infants Took me long enough, to feel,Complete, with fear of oversteppingOversaying over respect and yet saying and over stepping took me long enough, to open my mouth,To put a crown on my head, for…

What Does That Make Me?

By

Tracey Howard

 If I’m world weary,

but haven’t travelled

outside the country,

does it count?

If I believe

there are forces

greater than we will ever know,

but don’t believe

in one God,

does that make me a non-believer?

If I have

strong core values,

but am willing to lie

to spare a life,

does that make me a hypocrite?

If I have a valid point of view,

but don’t force

others to listen,

does that make me weak?

If I know

the answer to a

difficult question,

but keep it to myself,

does that make me stingy?

If I see an argument

brewing on the horizon,

but choose to ignore it,

does that make me non-confrontational?

If my questions

Make some uncomfortable,

but I still ask them,

does that make me inconsiderate?

If I believe

in myself,

and ignore others

who doubt all I do,

does that make me arrogant?

If I keep

my mind open,

but defend my stand

no matter what,

does that make me inflexible?

If I keep

my eyes open,

and my mouth shut,

does that make me a witness?

If I always

keep control of my emotions,

even when others can’t,

does that make me cold?

If I watch

you crash and burn,

refuse to catch you again,

does that make me selfish?

If I have more

than the person next to me,

but I keep it all

just for myself,

does that make me greedy?

If I laugh at myself

when everyone else

is too uncomfortable to,

does that make me a fool?

If I mourn

the loss of a friend,

but shed no tears in public,

does that make me uncaring?

If I withhold

forgiveness,

even when you beg,

does that make me a bitch?

If I lose my heart,

but guard my soul,

does that make me less committed?

If I say

I understand,

when I really don’t,

and still smile as you leave,

does that make me stupid?

If I choose

to believe whole heartedly

until given a reason not to,

does that make me naive?

If I know

that three strikes

have long been surpassed,

but continue the game

does that make me gullible?

If my personal beliefs

clash with my ideals,

does that make me confused?

If I crash your world,

in a fight to save mine,

does that make me a villain?

If I save my world,

and not yours,

does that make me my hero?