#expersecutor

How have other (ex)persecutors healed and stopped being a persecutor? How? I'm not sure I want to give up my role entirely but I don't want to be the 'evil' one anymore

Host was watching a TV show where the reformed season 1 villain splits her past/evil self and present/good self into 2 different people and kills the bad one. I don't regret what I've done but I kinda want to do the same

On the inside I even have 2 physical forms (sometimes 3 but not for a while) that I switch between so it feels even more like I could just cut that part off and be entirely separate. But I don't want to split, I just want rid of the bad part of me

But idk how to go about becoming not a persecutor or what I'd even want to be it not one. From my experience, I as persecutor have been the only one willing to do the things needed to prevent us getting hurt but no one seems to get that

I just want a clean slate and to be able to interact with the rest of the system in a different way but I can't just leave my system defenseless

Talk about yourself! i feel like a lot of us get dehumanized for lack of a better term by non-persecutors, especially hosts and singlets, and seen as just our jobs and mistakes. Even if no one else says it, I’ve found that at least a significant minority of us subconsciously feel like we’re not allowed to be people and be full in the same ways as our system mates or as singlets. But we’re so much more than our trauma, our anger and fear; we’re more than our bad qualities.

Who are you, as an individual?