#exfriends

We may not be friends anymore but that doesnt mean I don’t care anymore. Theres this special place in my heart for everyone I’ve ever loved.

Ok so I don't know how bad ya'll think it is so I want you opinion, so one of my now ex friends decided to stop being my friend because of a book I was writing on a different app. What are your opinions on this

I have no one to talk to irl I've been having almost constant anxiety attacks it seems like so much is going on at once I'm about to break down. I have no one to confide in so I have to scream into the void if tumblr. Nu biggest issue is I'm broke because I haven't been able to get to my job which is an hour away and no one I know is willing to let me use their car, which sucks because I could pretty much get all the money I need to fix my car in one night but no one is willing . Also I told my boyfriend a lie that I stopped stripping and have a regular job and that a check is coming to me it was supposed to be here yesterday it would have worked out if I had a car I could have the money to make him believe I really got a different job so now that web of lies is going to unravel and sucks because although we gave issues he's the only thing close to a friend I have right now. Which is another issue in itself I was about to break things off with him because the money I had coming in from stripping but now that I haven't been able to work im back to relying on him. Also the only "friend " I thought I had has been back hanging with 2 girls that hate me for no reason and so she's been blowing me off and not inviting me to anything which sucks . I see her post online about going out with them n they comment how fun they are having and whatever and it kinda burns lol 😂 she hasn't replied to me or anything lately either so I'm not sure if she's hopped on the hating me band wagon the other girls are on or not but the way I see it if the people you run with don't like me I should assume you don't either. So I have no friends now which makes me turn more into my toxic relationship i was trying to escape. Oh and I'm pretty sure the friend i was just talking about likes my crush she added him on insta and liked a picture of his , she just left her boyfriend and I'm scared they're gonna have a thing she doesn't know I like him I haven't told anyone because I feared this would happen, that shed like him and make a move because my ex bestfriend always fucked dudes I liked so I was scared and i guess rightfully so I can't be with someone that's been with my friend it ex friends it just will make me to jealous and insecure . I'm hoping they don't do anything thought I really really like that boy but he's a hoe and she's pretty and I'm sad , slick heart broken. I guess that's all I have to get about tonight it just sucks I feel so alone I feel childish I feel sick to my stomach.