#erebuskin

I remembered a situation with an ex-friend. Too long to get into details here, so I won't. The major thing is that said ex-friend decided to paint me as a villain in the last major fight we ever had. I was hurt a lot at the time by time. It really stung to be considered to be like that in my mind. Now I'm just looking back on that going "Holy fuck, he sniffed out my kins before even I did." I didn't know I was kin with anyone at the time. At most, I only ever kinsidered Vanilla Ice, but that ultimately panned out as feeling wrong. Now, I know I'm DIO-kin and Erebus-kin. I probably shouldn't be looking back on that and having a laugh about it or feeling happy over it. However, with the kin-realizations, I cannot help myself. It's so amusing looking back on that. He got me right. I am a villain, but I'm trying to improve. I'm trying to be a better person in this life. I've got a lot to improve on, but I think I'm doing well. To my ex-friend: I know for a fact you won't find this post. Still, I wish you the best, despite all the shit you've done. - A Reforming Villain (#📖🔥💀) PS: Thank you for being here MPC. You deal with a lot of long confessions and I must thank you again for it. Make sure to drink some water, take a nice break, and be safe.

I found another song that gives me massive kin-feels. The song is called Intro by Bolt Thrower. It comes from their album called Realm of Chaos. The low chanting and mechanical sounds is perfect to me, even if the low speech is presumably coming from Loyalists. The album is really closed tied to Warhammer 40k too, as Games Workshop produced the album cover, and the album as a whole is really tied into the game/series. I wish I could have listened to the whole album, but it's Death Metal. This was my first exposure to Death Metal and I absolutely hated everything past Intro. I appreciate all the song titles in the album though, as they're all fitting of the series. I may try to listen to Prophet of Hatred from the album at some point, if I ever return to it. - Erebus (#📖🔥💀)

I love having romantic feelings that I cannot talk about ever. I love it! Like, these are all feelings I explored with selfshipping before realizing I was kin. I feared being kin from Warhammer 40k because of these feelings I had and explored with selfshipping. I fucking love it man. I can't talk about these feelings because due to my nature of being made into a Space Marine these feelings would be incestous in universe/in canon in some way. I love it. Sure, it's selfshipping from this life, but now I get to have a layer of kin weirdness sprinkled on top! It feels so easy to insert myself as Erebus. Fucking love it man. (All of this is sarcasm. I don't like having to think about this. I now fear if I mentioned loving these characters as Erebus-kin, people would cast me out or be concerned. Tag as incest please.) - Erebus (#📖🔥💀)

Proper Religion warning, sorry for not noting it in the past. I got an unexpected blessing from Tzeentch tonight. At least, that's what it feels like, and what I like to think of it as. I was breeding Pokemon for a kin-team for Erebus. Two of the Pokemon on the team are Chandelure and Beheeyem. Chandelure is a favorite of mine, I think it really fits Erebus too, and Beheeyem was meant to represent Tzeentch, whom is all about Trickery, Change, and knowledge. I wanted a shiny Litwick, as the whole line means a lot. I wanted to breed it last, so I worked on other team members in the meantime. Got all but Litwick and one other member done, went to clean out my boxes of eggs to prepare. I got a shiny female Elgyem instead. I was wanting to be mad about it, before remembering who this Pokemon was meant to represent. It's thrown a wrench into my plans concerning breeding my Litwick. I'm not sure whether or not to breed for a shiny Litwick now. It's super on brand for Tzeentch to do this. I don't know, she just feels like a blessing from him to me. I can't get over how fitting it is for this to happen. I'm really happy with hatching her. I need to give her a befitting name soon. Maybe I'm reading too far into this, but damn if it doesn't line up nicely. - Erebus (#📖🔥💀)