I’m trying to do nice things for myself, perhaps attempting to buy my own love, so I schedule a facial. Can’t hurt to also up my chances of bagging a new beaux or winning back my old one (it should be obvious which option this dumbass would prefer). Drinks with friends follows (this is now my 5th day of drinking, BTW) and I’m having an okay time. Then X wants to text me about two nights ago (which will from now on be referred to as Psycho Saturday) because he has decided that now, RIGHT NOW, I need to know exactly how he feels about it. He also accuses me of seeing a guy friend who he asked me not to hang out with when we were together and threatens to come to the bar where I’m at to see if he is there with me (he wasn’t). I allow him to vent and attempt to keep my cool, but inside I am sort of like “who the fuck do you think you are coming at me like this?” He continues to send me angry texts all night, until I get one that peeks my interest (because as discussed earlier, I’m a dumbass). He says he’s been drinking and asks do I want to get together later. Of course I accept what I think is an invitation for cuddles and closeness and *maybe* me winning back his heart through physical love. So I leave my friends to head home (I had left my ID and debit card at another bar so I couldn’t hang with them anymore anyway) and await further instructions from X about this dream opportunity to reconcile. What I receive around 12:30 is the harsh realization that I have been punked. When I reach out to him to see if the invitation is still good, he proceeds to lay into me for actually believing that he wanted to hang out all while laughing at his own sick joke. Instead of prolonging the conversation and giving him more satisfaction in humiliating me, I stop texting him and let it go. He sends me a couple more texts later on in the night apologizing for being a jerk, but this to me is a turning point. He showed his ass so fully that I can feel myself starting to peel away the veil of bullshit I have refused to look past and see who he really is.
