Day 14
Dude, I freaking know I was slacking. Here I am again. I am determined to finish this. So day 14 of me doing this, not real day 14.
What are my biggest daily challenges with food and body?
Everyday I wake up and fight with myself. In the mornings before heading out the door normally when I am getting dressed before I brush my teeth I think to myself “Should I make breakfast, because I might get hungry on the road or I could eat when I get to work. Nah, I won’t get hungry until later.” Everyday I convince myself that I won’t be hungry, then get to work and I am hungry at like 9am. I think this leads to impulsive eating or helps when I get triggered to emotionally eat. I am hungry so I allow the emotional eating to happen. Also, if I have money on me, I always consider eating an alternative to what I brought with me. Sometimes in the mornings, I decided I will not eat at all. Especially if I did not like the way I looked that morning. Same with dinner. I often cook dinner though. I rarely snack, when I do it is usually unhealthy, I do it mindlessly because by the time I do get home I am so hungry I could eat a horse.
My body on the other hand, some days I wake up and think hmm, I kinda like it. Others I am like yuck wth did I do to myself. those are the days I wanna really get my eating on track. I dislike my body most days though and tend to only look at sections of myself. I like pieces of me, not the whole package. I like to deny to myself often that I am not at war with my body.
I need to focus on eating right for health, not for weight loss. Weight loss will follow when I eat better. I will feel better when I treat my body with better foods and love. It is easier to like my body when I am actively feeding it right.
