#emoition

Not a fan of Ed but I love every song on the album (like how’s that possible??)

Definitely a lyrical masterpiece.

Carpool (Emotions/Character) (Short Form)

A short form game usually played with 4 players.

4 chairs will be set up on stage like front and back seats of a car. One at a time players will get into the car and each player will be endowed with the suggestion of an emotion.

So if player 1 was angry they would enter the scene angry about wherever they are going. If the suggestion of location was Disney Land they might start to mention all of the things they hate about Disney.  

After the first player has played the scene solo for a bit a second player will enter with a new emotion and player 1 will also take on the same emotion of the player getting into the car and continue moving the scene forward. So if player 2 is happy, both player 1 and 2 will now play the scene together as happy and still going to Disney. Player 3 enters and is sad and now all 3 players will play sad, and finally player 4 will enter as exhausted and all 4 players will play exhausted. Then player 4 will find a reason to leave and once player 4 leaves everyone will go back to the emotion of player 3 and play sad, then player 3 leaves and we go back to the 2 players playing happy and then finally player 2 exits and we go back to just player one being angry possibly while arriving at Disney.

A chaotic mind can lead to many things, a concealment of happiness that you use as a shield from others, even those closest to you. Sometimes this mask you put on to protect yourself end up becoming the thing that holds you back. 

We as people need to feel loved, wanted and appreciated. It’s in a raw instincts to create a space where you can be safe. Safe from harm in every sense of the word.

What people fail to tell you is that escaping is fine aslong as you don’t hold these things in the back of your mind. Because this is when they will catch up to you

I’m defiantly one for holding my emotions back and acting like there is nothing wrong. This is not healthy but everyone does things they know are not necessarily good for them.

Although this may be bad, this complete inward attitude to me emotional state has helped me realise a lot of things. You don’t need to be afraid to be safe in your own mind. I use it to calculate and process things to come to a conclusion as to whether they even need any thought. This may seem like a long process but I don’t wanna approach a issue if I have thought it through and think it doesn’t need addressing.

Some issue will seem never to get resolved and be continuously floating around in the back of your mind until something triggers them.

Hence this random reflection, I have been on a self journey most of my life, letting people come into my life which may or may not have influenced me in a positive way. But this is not a bad thing, these are the reason we grow. 

Someone will come into your life be it a stranger, a friend or a lover, and completely sweep you of your feet. 

Be guarded. Be critical. Be you.

But always allow yourself to soak up the energy of positivity these people wanna give you. Feel love and let it consume you.

My brain is constantly thinking about a million things at once. But I’m always open to love from any avenue. Also being I’ve found someone that despite everything I have just said, loves me for me. 

The inner working of your own mind are awful.

Talking about feelings is the most retarded thing ever. Especially old feels that you can't change. I get why people are guarded and keep their feels to themselves but how can you expect to get anywhere like that? I dont know if I fall into that category because I have MAJOR trust issues. I don't believe anyone when they say they care about me or like me. I'm a one size fits all girl so for me to believe it, the person has to be consistent and actually try to show me. I guess that makes me high maintenance but after I believe it, it's an easy ride.

It just really bothers me how easily some people can effect me. You like me...but never implied anything...you were holding back....but were confused as to where we stood...um yeah me freaking too! If I like talking to someone I don't play by the rules. I dont wait for them to txt me first, or act coy. I say what I want and thats that. But does that mean I should assume the dominate role in every relationship? Just be the first to txt, put myself on the line?