AMessedUpMind

Love is the safety of your palm on my skin that says everything is alright, the feeling of being grounded but when our lips meet letting it soar. Then giant butterfly I get whenever you kiss my ring finger, the way you giggle at your own farts. Playfighting into crying laughter, and not feeding me moths. The three kisses I get every morning, and the one before we sleep. Cuddles anytime and anywhere. The gentle shove you give me walking around a supermarket.

I could go on forever, but as our forever grows so does the list.

A chaotic mind can lead to many things, a concealment of happiness that you use as a shield from others, even those closest to you. Sometimes this mask you put on to protect yourself end up becoming the thing that holds you back. 

We as people need to feel loved, wanted and appreciated. It’s in a raw instincts to create a space where you can be safe. Safe from harm in every sense of the word.

What people fail to tell you is that escaping is fine aslong as you don’t hold these things in the back of your mind. Because this is when they will catch up to you

I’m defiantly one for holding my emotions back and acting like there is nothing wrong. This is not healthy but everyone does things they know are not necessarily good for them.

Although this may be bad, this complete inward attitude to me emotional state has helped me realise a lot of things. You don’t need to be afraid to be safe in your own mind. I use it to calculate and process things to come to a conclusion as to whether they even need any thought. This may seem like a long process but I don’t wanna approach a issue if I have thought it through and think it doesn’t need addressing.

Some issue will seem never to get resolved and be continuously floating around in the back of your mind until something triggers them.

Hence this random reflection, I have been on a self journey most of my life, letting people come into my life which may or may not have influenced me in a positive way. But this is not a bad thing, these are the reason we grow. 

Someone will come into your life be it a stranger, a friend or a lover, and completely sweep you of your feet. 

Be guarded. Be critical. Be you.

But always allow yourself to soak up the energy of positivity these people wanna give you. Feel love and let it consume you.

My brain is constantly thinking about a million things at once. But I’m always open to love from any avenue. Also being I’ve found someone that despite everything I have just said, loves me for me. 

The inner working of your own mind are awful.