#emmy things

I do not owe anyone my writing or time.

I write for fun and because I enjoy it. I write because I like being on here and creating things. I have so many words and ideas in my head that if I don't get them out, they haunt me.

This is a hobby. It is one I do for free that I picked back up during the pandemic. I am proud of my work and the community I have found and built here but I will not be made guilty for what I do or don't post.

In the last four weeks; my mother has been in hospital while I'm countries away, I've have been very ill, I've cut myself so badly I needed stitches and I'm trying to keep up with my own workload and personal life.

I wrote a little hockey fic because for the first time in a long while, while sleep deprived, I felt the urge to write and I did. For the first time in weeks, I wasn't staring at blank documents. I was writing. I felt that spark and I was excited.

People do not get to take that from me just because they are disappointed it's not a pairing or au or fandom they wanted me to write.

I am a person.

That's a hard one because there are so many ships that have different vibes and relationships when I am writing them.

I think Dando might be my top pairing because there is so much to explore in that dynamic. There's fun and softness there but also complexities and angst. They fit each other, and bring out something in each other that makes my brain itch to write them.

I enjoy writing Norrussell a lot too because their personalities are so different and they shouldn't fit but they do.

Then you have my rare pairs like Pierre/Lando, Charles/Lando, Esteban/Lando and Norstappen that are always fun to dabble in.

@chericheribaby thank you for the tag :)

Hi my dear 🥺❤️

Honestly, last year was a lot. Not just the nagativity in F1 spaces but with life stuff too. A lot of my writing got a little too realisitic for comfort (nothing I posted, just drafts written at 3am as distractions) and then I just kind of....stopped.

I have written a few small things on here or for hockey, but in the last few months, I've struggled with any writing because I feel like I've let people down, and myself down so I've been scared to come back. I honestly have worried that I won't be as good, or that people will be sick of me not being as frequent with my replies and easing into bigger fics (which I know is silly).

I am getting some inspiration to write again, so I have been doing small things bts. I have been just letting myself ramble to get in a flow.

I reblogged some prompts today and I would love to recieve some of those, and I am going to have a look at my inbox right now and see if I can answer some stuff ❤️

This is a hard one....I don't have a specific favourite person, but I do have people!

The most obvious would be my Nan, Mam and my little sister. We don't always get along. Sometimes they do my head in, but i know they love me no matter what. They've really shown that over the last few months with how they've been supporting me even with their own stuff going on.

I love all of them and I am forever grateful that I have them.

I have a favourite cousin who is older than me. She's autistic and just the kindest person you'll ever meet. She hilarious. She has the type of laugh that makes you laugh even if you missed the joke. I looked up to her as a kid, she was my intro to music to anime to horror movies to kpop. We chat musicals and random stuff, and she always has my back.

And then there are my friends.

A big shout out has to go to my girl @rasaiocht because we have been friends since we were kids. We grew apart a little in the pre-teen years and then reconnected like nothing ever happened in our last years of school. She's my rock. My partner in crime. The one I know will always pick up the phone, and who I'd call to help burry a body. I am forever grateful for her coming back into my life and proud to call her a friend 🥺❤️

And then there is @f1-birb who is the other half of brain.

Almost three years of friendship that I absolutely do not deserve. Birb has been in my corner from day one, and she still isn't sick of me even though I got her into hockey against her will 😅 She had always been honest with me. Always ready to defend me or support me and also to drag me if I'm being stupid. I would honestly be lost without Birb and our daily talks and the way we share one single brain cell.

I hope every one of you finds friends like Sorcha and Birb, because everyone needs friends like them and I'd be lost without them in my life 🥺❤️