#em.

#𝚋𝚊𝚜𝚒𝚌𝚜.

FULL NAME: ernest cyneweard macmillan

NAME MEANING: ernest | serious and vigour. / cyneweard | royal guard. / macmillan | son of the bald one.

NICKNAME(S): ernie, ern, mac

DATE OF BIRTH: may 30th.

AGE: 23.

GENDER + PRONOUNS: cis man + he/him.

RELIGION: atheist.

#𝚛𝚎𝚕𝚊𝚝𝚒𝚘𝚗𝚜𝚑𝚒𝚙𝚜.

FATHER: cyneweard maximillian macmillan. newly strained relationship: cyneweard instilled a deep, almost dangerous, level of pride in his son. after all, they were macmillans: sacred, long-lived, survivors and protectors. it is this that is his downfall. he refuses to see that voldemort has returned, whether out of fear or just disbelief - an opinion that, for possibly the first time in his life, that ernie doesn't share. it's resulted in a chasm opening up between them and there's only a matter of time before they'll have it out.

MOTHER: andromache florence macmillan nee fawley. loving but distant: andromache was a good mother to her only child. she couldn't have anymore children after him, and even though that wasn't a rarity, she doted upon him -- sending care packages and money under the not always so watchful eyes of his father. they're somewhat strained at the minute, as she, most definitively out of terror, has taken her husbands side in believing that voldemort is not dead, but he's still in more contact with her than he is his father.

SIBLINGS: none applicable.

EXTENDED FAMILY: maximilian macmillan (paternal grandfather), briar macmillan nee fudge (paternal grandmother), alcott macmillan (paternal uncle, godfather), dorothea macmillan nee fawley (paternal aunt via marriage, godmother), edmund macmillan (cousin), perseus black (paternal uncle via marriage, deceased), elladora black nee macmillan (paternal aunt), dorea ollivander nee macmillan (paternal aunt), garrick ollivander iii (paternal uncle via marriage), osric fawley (maternal grandfather, deceased), winnifred fawley nee gamp (maternal grandmother, deceased), aeson macdougal (maternal uncle via marriage), isabella fawley macdougal (maternal aunt), morag macdougal (cousin), adira smith (maternal aunt via marriage, godmother), calliope smith nee fawley (maternal aunt, godmother), zacharias smith (cousin), deimos burke (maternal uncle via marriage, estranged), araminta burke nee fawley (maternal aunt, estranged), elspeth burke (cousin), octavian burke (cousin).

PETS: owl named peter, pygmy puff named wendy and a therapy kneazle named lily. 

ORIENTATION: demiromantic, closeted bisexual.

LOYALTY: hufflepuffs, mainly. the light.

#𝚖𝚊𝚗𝚒𝚏𝚎𝚜𝚝𝚊𝚝𝚒𝚘𝚗𝚜.

HOUSE: hufflepuff. hufflepuff geminis stand out for being geniuses at what muggles like to call 'multitasking'. they can't just work on one project - they need to have eight or nine things going all at once, usually as close to the deadline as possible. they also tend to be a little more outspoken and extraverted than the average hufflepuff, who would rather sit near the back of the classroom and quietly take notes to study later. because they often bite off more than they can chew, they are always complaining of various ailments related to stress.

BLOOD STATUS: pureblood, member of the sacred 28. consists of at least nine generations of purebloods. the macmillan family are closely connected to the following pureblood families: blacks, burkes, smiths, fawleys, ollivanders and the macdougals. a noted entry must also be the fudges, who have been considered pedigreed purebloods for only two generations.

AMORTENTIA: tba.

WAND: acacia, phoenix feather core, 11 1/2 inches, flexible. acacia is a very unusual wand wood which created tricky wands that often refused to produce magic for anyone other than their rightful owner, it also withhelld its best effects from all but the most gifted witches and wizards. this sensitivity rendered them difficult to place. garrick ollivander ii kept only a small stock for those witches or wizards of sufficient subtlety, for acacia was not suited to what was commonly known as 'bangs-and-smells- magic. when well matched, an acacia wand matched any for power, though it was often underrated due to the peculiarity of its temperament. acacia wands were not used often, as in the wrong hands, it would either be overpowered or extremely weak. case in point: ernie's father once took ernie's wand to show him how to perform a spell, and the wand practically revolted from his touch and refused to emit even a singular spark. phoenix feather wands were capable of the greatest range of magic, though they may take longer to reveal this. they showed the most initiative, sometimes acting of their own accord, a quality that many witches and wizards disliked. they were most picky about potential owners, their allegiance was hard won and they were the most difficult to tame and personalise. ernie has only ever felt his wand act of it's own accord once, and that was to save his life - he has never managed to feel even the slightest bit upset about this fact.

AREA OF STUDY: healing and medicine. the focus of magical healing practices and muggle medicine. ernie is most drawn to muggle surgical methods and devising ways to make them more effectively used as part of magical healing practices, as well as potion inventing.

CLUBS: member of the slug club and the wizarding wireless. ernie has been a member of the slug club since he first started at hogwarts. the wizarding wireless is new, though, something that came about after cedric passed. he couldn't sleep, couldn't eat, and well, he needed something productive to do and the wireless gave him that.

PATRONUS: boar. the wild boar is usually produced by those who are incredibly strong and noble. many who conjure the wild boar are normally down to earth and very reserved, but very dangerous and fierce when threatened. they are quick thinking, clever, and very competitive in battle, making these witches or wizards very confident when challenged. those who conjure the wild boar are incredibly honorable. they are excellent warriors and end to follow closely to tradition. the wild boar patronus normally belongs to those who are willing to fight for their beliefs and who are incredibly loyal. in short, it symbolises strength, power, athleticism, independence, avoidance of unnecessary conflict and defence.

BOGGART: voldemort over his friends corpse. he's never seen voldemort. there aren't any photos printed in newspapers, not even the old ones. just fear, hysteria disguised as normality. he doesn't need to, though. his nightmares provide him more than enough to be able to picture the man himself. the first time he saw his boggart after that lesson in third year - where it was a stone justin, by the way - he threw up.

#𝚙𝚑𝚢𝚜𝚒𝚌𝚊𝚕𝚜.

ETHNICITY: white.

NATIONALITY: british.

HAIR: blonde. short, heavily textured with added volume. low fade on the sides. product use is obvious - volumising mousse and matt pomade are preferred. gel is a no-go (what, you think he wants to look like a malfoy?)

EYES: blue.

SKIN: fair, unblemished. ernie takes very good care of his skin. people could call him vain, but he just considers it self-care and a normal part of his routine. okay, yeah, i'll admit the LED light he uses sometimes is a bit much, but who doesn't enjoy their skin looking good?

HEIGHT: 5’10”.

BUILD: mesomorph - athletic, heavy, naturally high muscle to fat ratio, medium bone structure, wide shoulders, narrow hips, ability to easily gain muscle mass, almost appears square. kibbe is natural - romantic.

FACECLAIM: leo woodall.

VOICE CLAIM: leo woodall.

#𝚎𝚖𝚘𝚝𝚒𝚘𝚗𝚊𝚕.

TRAITS: + industrious, + generous, + intelligent, = competitive, = predictable, = obedient, - prideful, - reactive, - anxious.

STRENGTHS: potions, care of magical creatures, defense against the dark arts, natural inclination towards healing magics, rugby (part of an amateur league), apparition (soundless).

WEAKNESSES: transfiguration, divination, natural disinclination to dark magics, has panic attacks, flying.

#𝚒𝚗𝚏𝚘𝚛𝚖𝚊𝚝𝚒𝚘𝚗.

born in norwich, norfolk — he is very much a stereotypical southern posh boy for a good chunk of his life, as well as being the only child and heir to his fathers ‘empire’. 

home schooled until the age of 11 when he was dumped head first into private school (the same one his father attended, no less), where he thrived. 

hit a growth spurt at age 13 and was nigh unrecognisable if not for the same blue of his eyes to the school staff at the beginning of the next term. 

signed a contract at the age of 14 that dictates the terms upon which he is, as the eldest and only son, to inherit the family fortune. one of the terms was that he find a pure or halfblooded wife with whom to have at least one child. 

his family has many hands in many pots — though they keep their hands much cleaner than the malfoy’s do, despite being just as proud as them of their status in society. 

was rather a stout child, and some would say he still is as an adult. but he’s mostly filled out the soft edges with muscle. 

tends to talk about himself when he’s nervous — which comes across as him being arrogant and a bit of a braggart. he comforts himself with possibly mind numbing facts about his long family history. 

he had no interest in choosing magical law for his area of study, much to his father’s chagrin. he instead chose healing — a profession his father had to be reminded is just as impressive. 

often distributes snacks from his care packages around his fellow hufflepuffs. he hates seeing others go hungry, even if they, like him, are too prideful to accept charity. 

suffers from panic attacks and a probably undiagnosed anxiety disorder, which he is unlikely to actually get diagnosed so long as he is under his father’s proverbial thumb. 

regrets his - in retrospect very hasty - actions in calling potter a cheat last year. he could not get out of bed for two days after he came back with cedric’s body, and only did so after hearing how scared one of his best friends sounded. 

he has taken up running when he cannot sleep. read: he has taken up running at any available moment. it clears his mind, gives him room to simply breathe again. rugby helps, too, though that’s more about the bruises left afterwards. 

he’s known about the entrance to the hogwarts kitchens since his first year — whenever the hufflepuffs have anything even small to celebrate, he’ll often be put in charge of putting all the food and drinks together.

his father was approached by voldemort’s followers back before ernie was born. ever since, they’ve been monitored near constantly and everyone who comes to their family home is subject to rigorous background checks. they’ve had their heads forcibly in the sand on the issue of voldemort’s return. 

believes voldemort is back, much to his parents irritation. he has been instructed to keep his head down, to ensure the family name is not muddied by the potter boy’s ‘delusions’. (yes, they know he is 23. no, they do not care that the average 23 year old is not being instructed on how to behave by their parents.) 

he hasn’t been disowned over this but tensions have risen. he spent the last three weeks of the summer holidays with justin rather than stay at home. 

went through a history of magic phase in first year — the boys in his dorm can still recite the names of the trolls in alphabetical order thanks to him jabbering on about it. 

feels incredibly lost, if we’re being honest with each other. he doesn’t like to let it show because he thinks it’s a weakness. the world is turning back to war again and he’s honestly terrified - for himself, for his family, for his friends. 

has had a series of failed relationships that ended in disaster. he, a big believer in the concept of true love, is known as a bit of a bleeding heart despite being, well. ernie. 

producer for the wizarding wireless club, often takes the night shift with luna but is known to show up at 4am for the morning shift, the maniac, bright eyed and bushy tailed to get to work. he has allotted slots to talk about therapy and remind people of the importance of attending your doctor/healer appointments regularly.

#𝚠𝚊𝚗𝚝𝚎𝚍𝚜.

his hufflepuff crew..... his besties his beloveds his bastards? where r u!!!

his platonic soulmate(s)? he says there is more than enough love to go around

childhood friends

friends

people he used to tutor

people he still tutors

his cousins aka my fave hater zacharias smith wya…..?

enemies

academic rivals

exes

a friends with benefits turned soooo messy

🩶 hello!! em here. i turned a year older! woohoo!! still coming to terms with it... i feel [not a good] weird but... i am also contemplatinf that it is a good turning point for "Change" and as averse to that scary word and what it means,, i feel it is appropriate to start anew and carry that "change" out somewhere else. perhaps embrace some parts of me i never liked about myself or look at myself in the mirror and do a deep, thorough cleanup of what is holding me back from completing what is hopefully the final phase of my healing process.

as i am sure you've noticed, i have sort of taken a hiatus from this account. as some mutuals and close friends know, i am a deeply empathetic person and it is hard for me (as well as unhealthy on my spiritual and emotional state) to cling to people or things that are blocking me my true, ideal, higher self. other aspects outside of tumblr as well have been holding me back or rather clinging to me like a dark shadow: perfectionism, doubt, anxiety, depression, grief, and other dark thoughts i would rather not get into.

and so, to break free from all that and more, i want to start anew somewhere else and tie up this "Healing" chapter in my story with a pretty bow. and to do that, i will be "abandoning" this account; you may see me here on occasion just to keep things tidy and in order. but for the most part, i will be somewhere else on tumblr. (i hold this app near and dear to my heart. i made many a memory here, many a friend - new and old, and it remains to be one of my favorite comfort social media apps if not my number one most used app. i feel free here, comfortable; tumblr is one of my few safe spaces and i appreciate everyone here that i follow and who follows me; i will forever cherish every interaction here.

but as i said, for the sake of my mental and emotional state, i, as em, will become no more. maybe you'll find me somewhere else~ but i ask you to respect my wishes here in this message and not publicly reveal me to friends, mutuals, etc. of your own. i want to leave "em" behind as much as i can (as i know that i cannot completely erase em forever). [ if you have me in your posts taglist and you see this, please remove this account from it.]

thank you if you ever sent me a kind message or a lovely message chain !!!! i still hold them in my inbox and refer to them on my worst days for comfort.

as for my writing, i will continue to write even if those posts will be a little bit different or even drastically from what i used to write. with time and "old" age comes a new mindset and more mature thoughts and wonders and imaginings. with such a milestone of a birthday, i feel my writing may not be suited for my old audience nor will i feel comfortable with my younger audience reading such deep, mature, and more thoughtful innerworkings of my mind.

as for the friends, mutuals, and favorite blogs i still hold close to my heart, thank you for the memories! perhaps you'll see me on the other side? if so, i ask for complete and utter discretion. there is a reason i am not disclosing in this lengthy message my new tumblr home. again, as i said, please respect that and do not go spreasing it and my new moniker around to your own friends and mutuals (unless you and i share a mutual.... but will you know that? perhaps....).

lastly/again, thank you for the fond memories, deep conversations, and caring advice. and of course, our fun, late night talks giggling about our favorite characters and scenarios we made up about them.