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I'm happy Estonia AND Lithuania made it, I was worried it would be one or the other BUT BOTH ARE GOING TO BE HEEEERE HAAAAAAA SO HAPPY!

Denmark didn't make it but I'm okay with it not being there.

I knew Georgia wouldn't qualify by watching tonight, it was missing something. The vocals were perfect but the whole presentation were missing something, I don't know what but I felt it.

Yesterday before sleeping I read the entire story of the first book of The Old Guard and then because I couldn’t wait I read all the second tome except for the 5th part of it who happens to be the end. 

I actually loved it, and it made me regret for a moment that the adaptation is a film instead of a show but at the same time I’m okay with it. I loved everything about it and the idea of these beings, these people who lived and died so many times through a large amount of time and how it’s wearing them down, the psychological effects of it is incredible. 

I watched the movie today and I’m okay with most of the changes, what happen to Quynh is actually worst than what happen to Tomiko in the books and weirdly I’m okay with that change, even if I do believe the two situations can end with the same consequences.

I liked how they made Nile question a little more the situation she’s in and not choosing to get with the group by default but because she wanted to be with them and could understand who they were. I know some people were annoyed by her but to me, it made sense, she wasn’t being complicated or difficult for nothing, it was realistic. 

The twist about Andy at the end of the movie put me off a little, I’m not fan of that change. 

Booker...tssssssssssss...but it made sense...in a way like he was alone while Andy had partners before and then Nicky & Joe have each other since the beginning. I really hate disloyal people and I don’t want to give them any benefice of the doubt or excuses but I do understand his pain and why he did what he did and I feel it’s also because he thought maybe Andy would understand him. I loved when she told him in the books how she didn’t want to die, just a reason to live, I really wanted to have Charlize say the same thing to Matthias in the movie instead of “not this way”. The fact the screenwriter is the comic books writer makes me accept the changes more easily because the heart of the story is still there.

Nicky & Joe, I have nothing to add, everyone is already saying what I feel about them. I absolutely love their story and the fact they have been together for 900+ years, they started the after life together in hatred for a second of their existence and live the rest of it just loving each other and it’s beautiful. This is how romance should be portrayed in general, the subtlety when it needs to be and the love declaration when it should be said, oie oie oie, my feels.

I prefer the comics villain more than the movie villain but in both cases I’m really into both stories and ending. Even if I feel they should have killed the doctor in the movie like in the comics but I understand why they didn’t. 

randoms thoughts 

While watching the movie, I wondered if the “Immortals” might connect with a few of them like the Sense8 cluster except they’re not specifically 8. Like there would be other “Immortals” in the world connected with each other but not with the Old Guard we know, it would be quite interesting. 

I was prepared to speak about The Plague  and her showing her white feminist mindset on Twitter but I read a moronic in the Bonnie Bennett tag and I’ll talk about that. 

I need one minute of silence for the moron explaining to a fandom mostly composed by Black women who are saying Bonnie was treated as a Magical Negro we are being “fake woke” in the fandom right now.

Jesus Lord give me strenght because I’m laughing. Everyone in the Bonnie Bennett fandom from fanpop to Tumblr and Twitter who were engaged about her, asking for her to have better writing, asking why her material in the books were given to Elena and Caroline, why she was never in the masquerade ball, parties to be dolled up, years after years, asking politely for her to have actual relationship with actors she had chemistry with, we were polite and then we were called RABID. When other stans are sending death threats, they were called passionate and got what they wanted. And I don’t forget when We All Bleed Red told us if Kat’s Jewish fans should advocate for Bonnie too...(that piece of shit).

I’m like, someone saying it’s offensive to call Bonnie a magical negro when she is basically what this trash show made her, it’s not on us. 

Calling us fake woke when we spend YEARS YES FUCKING YEARS ADVOCATING FOR HER AND ACTING FIGHTING WITH FUCKED UP SECOND RATE DEGENERATE DE STANS WHO SENT DEATH THREATS AT PEOPLE and you’re telling us, “oh the Bonnie stans didn’t do anything, now you’re fake woke”

I’m like seriously??????

I blocked that idiot but I’m not here for this bullshit revisionist history. Fuck you.

This thing would be a nostalgia place for me but I saw most of these content so much already, I don’t feel like going back to them and I already physically owned the things that I would want to go back too so it feels redundant. 

It’s not all of a waste because I mainly took it for the Beyoncé movie that I actually enjoyed and Hamilton, I also liked it and it was an interesting revision of History, it was actually really really fun. I was hyped for the Washington presentation song or Angelica Schuyler’s everything, Daveed Diggs is one of my husbands (sorry I don’t write the rules). 

Even if I already own the Star Wars movies (except the last, I refuse to have it in my home) I’m doing a rewatch of all the movies and then I’ll watch Clone Wars and Rebels for the first time. I never watched these series and I kind of want to see them. 

I’m a little annoyed the new Tumblr is messing with my xkit apps and there are likes pages anymore so I don’t know if I’ll have the patience to actually reblog half the shit I’ve liked a for while but never took the time to publish. Pff.

The last time that a finale did that to me was probably LOST (maybe others but I don’t remember so..meh), I hate crying because it gives me headaches just after. But I am a crier so I made my peace with that misery. 

I didn’t think, it would do that to me, when each of them decide to take the path they wanted to take, the moment of realization that it was the time to move on was so sad but not bad sad more like it’s time to say goodbye to them like saying goodbye to an old friend. They did it well and it made me cry, so I guess they did what they needed to do. I have so many questions but at the same time, not having answers to them is okay. This is the kind of ending I like, the ones that breaks your heart because it’s the end and that’s it. I’m happy the ended their show when they wanted to and didn’t drag it for years and years. 

This is the one of the rare shows I enjoyed from the beginning to the end. Before watching the Finale, I watched the Pilot and I realized so many moments for the rest of that first season was hinted that pilot, it’s crazy how re-watching it after four seasons gave me a new perspective and made me maybe pay more attention.

I’ll rewatch The Good Place because I love it and it made me care for Philosophy...and it’s incredibly funny because I had a 6/20 in that damned class for my Baccalauréat. This show made me care and made this subject interesting and fun. The character growth was remarkable for each of them, like for LOST, I’m sad that it’s over but also happy. 

I have to say it again and again, I love this movie but that end made it stupid. If when you got out of it and you are more troubled by that end than anything else and you need the directors and screenwriters to explain to you the logic behind the whole thing, it means you didn’t do a good job to begin with. 

My suspension of disbelief was fine until that last scene, I’m not the only one who think like that, I went with casual fans and we all loved the movie but that last scene completely fucked with our minds.

The theory of different timelines, with Steve creating another timeline is fucked up too because what about the Steve still in the ice? He don’t get to have an happy ending too then? And how old!Steve is even able to go in his previous timeline since he is in another one, he created, the Pym particles are also an alternate universe device? 

The theory of him staying in the right timeline and how he was Peggy’s husband from the start is not even better. That happy ending for him is questionable as fuck, he should have had that dance, his kiss and then go back BUT a lifetime COME ON! So yeah, I get when people are saying, he was hiding when his friends was being brainwashed and Tony’s parents got murdered, Hydra was infiltrating Shield easily...that whole thing is not good for his characterization. And it can’t even be right since her husband was someone else, so yeah, if he did change the actual timeline by being with her, then he did erase her entire life...not good.

I understand Tony’s death because no matter what, he could never not be Iron Man when the planet is in danger, it’s not in his nature, it almost cost him Pepper once, and now with mini Morgan, that couldn’t happen. We couldn’t have him still live a peaceful life far from any fight in this planet because he wanted Pepper, Morgan, Rhodey, Happy and everyone he cared for safe. I thought the same thing about Steve but I guess I was wrong. 

Natasha’s end made me cry so much because I actually put her and Clint as possible death it was really between them and I really hope it wouldn’t be her. They should have gave us all her scenes, and when I say that, it’s because we might have understood more her state of mind if we got her scene when she shooting in the range and when she’s literally miserable outside while it’s raining from the trailer. What happen to her was pure suicide, and they try to make us believe it’s for the Greater Good only, but we didn’t see how the Snap completely broke her, we see that it did something to her, but I feel because it’s Disney we didn’t get to see how it affected her mind. We saw Clint’s grief and how he coped, we saw Nat being the new Nick Fury, I really wanted to see more of her in that time and now especially because of her death. 

I saw a tweet of mine from two years ago where I was basically predicting the exact contrary of what is happening in this movie and it’s kind of funny. 

It’s the first time, I’m actually writing in this tumblr about any Star Wars movie.

I’ve found a way to not talk about it in this blog and I can’t exactly say why, it’s like I saw the movies like 3 times for the first two and twice for this one and nothing.

It’s kind of crazy. 

I’m not part of the fandom, I talk about the movies with friends, I’m as casual as you can be, I don’t ship anything, I don’t anti ship anything, I just go with the flow until now I guess.

I don’t like this movie, I don’t hate this movie. I enjoyed Force Awakens, I liked The Last Jedi and I find this movie meh.

It’s entertaining...it’s meh. 

I’m just sad because of the lack of imagination and the bad script who tells you everything instead of showing it or it tells you what will happen before showing the moments and it’s bad. Fanservice and nostagia can be such a bad mix. I know some people were living their best lives while seeing so (too) many references to the past movies or having their reddit theory becoming true but all I can think is how lazy it was. 

It’s just sad to watch such an unremarkable movie, it exists, it’s okay because it’s a Star Wars movie, it has a few good shots and that’s why I can’t find in me to hate/dislike it but after that this movie was pretty mediocre. 

If people love it then I’m happy for them, they find what they needed in it, if they hated it, it’s life. 

I just find it so lacking of imagination, it’s just depressing.