I am having a major withdraw from not binging, the urge to eat everything is strong. I have dreams about it. The urge is only strong at night. I cry, and cry, i even eat a little bit ( not binge) but just some food to see if it helps. It does not help at all. I distract my mind, but that does not work, it makes me sad, scared, and depressed. It is so painful not to binge. My mind is like I rather die than not binge eat. I feel guilty to not binge, and i feel guilty when i binge. All the feelings are the same. It is hurting my physically, and mentally, I do not know how to deal with all of this, sometimes i love eating a lot, but i can’t. My therapist wants me to get rid of the “habit” of binge eating, but i feel like once i do not allow myself to eat more than i want, or not allow myself food, i will slip back to be anorexic, I try so hard, but i still don’t feel good, binge eating or not binge eating. end rant :’(