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Question for ed twitter

What worsened your ed?

I feel like we all have had something that made us wanna get worse. For me, at the beginning of my ed, i was restricting a lot, and i was out on a trip with my mom and sis. They were looking for food and i was refusing everything because “i wasn’t hungry” and my sister catched on and started mocking me for wanting to me skinny. It made me feel like i was a wannarexic, and that it was just a short teenage phase. especially because i hadn’t lost so much weight at that point. Now i wanna get so bad i have to go to the hospital so that she can feel bad.

I just came back from a party and i feel like shit. I didn't eat much but the fact that almost half of the girls there were skinnier and more beautiful than me just triggers me like a lot and made me so conscious of my body. I truly believe that this illness makes us all a little more lonely not only because we try to keep it a secret but because there's that necessity of comparison, calculating our value not only with the scale but with others.