#ebab wisdom

calling in rest. starting over or evolving rather in different areas of my life. I cannot sludge my way through. It’s okay to take baby steps. I need to meet myself where I am with compassion. I’ll grow better that way. I’ll gain some insights I didn’t expect. I’m living my life on the inside offline. Time for organic discoveries and universe curated paths. self curated interests and breathing in-and-out for ease. It’s time to let go of the hardship I placed on myself. there is enough out there trying to take us out of here. I can fight back by being gentle with myself and blooming myself something beautiful. thank you for this gift. of life.

A post to remind myself that everything worked out and the big scary thing I was afraid of did Not happen.

You are not solely composed of your pain. What a liberating thought.

Honestly reading on ao3 is part of my recovery process. The other day someone called it bedtime stories. Coping mechanism or healing cause I’m still quite vulnerable for the world. Something something. Whatever it is I am here with it and just going take the joy it brings me as long as I can.

some of my issue with maintaining multi service based beauty routines is that it requires consistent excess income and able bodies to do it. That’s just not a sustainable reality or fair expectation for ppl. I am all for taking care of ourselves and having a beauty routine but it has to be sustainable. Additionally, I see too many messages about maintaining beauty to attract a partner or to match one’s success in career. Finding an amazing companion and maintaining a healthy relationship is not merely based on looks and attraction — character is key. And everyone deserves that companionship (of course everyone does not want a relationship and that is okay). But my point is that your deserving nature is not tied to how well you maintain expensive service based beauty regimens. Yes someone will love you if you don’t get a pedicure every 2 weeks, get lash extensions or fill ins, if you don’t wax your body. Someone will love you and take care of you because they have those attributes of being loving and caring regardless of what you do. It’s who they are! Likewise you’ll carry on the same with them.

Realizing your worth is so rewarding 🩷

Reminder that you are (good) enough for what you want