#eatingmealive

I just want to get things off my chest... but i cant find the words to say.

Every time I find a group of friends to be comfortable and content with, someone goes and fucks it all up.

so many things I want to ask you still

It’s kind of hard not talking to you anymore. We said as friends we're better, but you and I both knew that wasn’t going to happen. Who knows how many times I’ve wanted to text you or say hi to you and then talked myself out of it thinking why would you even want to talk to me? It gives me anxiety just thinking about it. I will walk past you as if I don’t care about you or anything that has happened, I will not say a word to you, or even look at your face, but trust me when I say I care, and I hate it. I feel guilty and it runs through my mind all day. I had fun talking to you. Flirting with each other is what we did best. I laughed a lot. You were a great friend. We may no longer be talking to each other. But like I said, I will never forget you nor will I ever reject you if you needed help with anything…You're right. I care too much. I shouldn't. I'm sorry.