Aug 7, 2019
Weird things about Relapsing WELL into Recovery
Wearing a crop top at a size 16 while looking at thinspo.
Having a recovery and bopo insta and my relapse tumblr open at the same time.
Fetishizing my illness and wanting to be better at the same time
Preaching recovery while being so fucking happy to relapse
Fighting fatphobia while hating myself JUST because I'm fat.
Listening to anamiamusic and hearing my past therapists yell at me at the same time
Knowing how wrong EVERYTHING I'm doing is and still fucking doing it.
Feeling like a hypocrite.
