Her waking is not gentle. It is not the gradual rise through layers and layers of sleep that comes with every dawn. It is a battle between survival instincts and forced unconsciousness, waged from the moment sheâd succumbed to the darkness of that living nightmare. Green eyes snap open, an addled mind urging an exhausted body to move. But she canât quite do anything just yet. Her chest cavity is full to the brim with smoke and shadows, flashes of fire and steel and blood brokenly replaying themselves behind her eyelids.
The sky is alight above, peaceful and beautiful despite the wreckage beneath it. In her ears, all she can hear still is the loud crackling of the fire, echoes of screaming and shouting. Despite the taste of ashes filling up her throat, burning all the way down to her lungs, Alice suddenly finds herself on her feet, taking in the aftermath of the devastation.
She senses movement more than she does life, eyes following the unnatural motions of the people whose smiles sheâd treasured so. They are all gone, now. Pulled along by an energy that does not belong to them. Her own magic has retreated deep within herself after the overexertion of keeping her alive, to the point where she feels numb. Unsure if she is another puppet doing someone elseâs bidding, the words escape her lips without her meaning to.
The answer cuts through the fog of trauma and she turns her head to seek the voice. Golden lashes flutter a few times to know for sure if her tired eyes are actually seeing the strings between the only living man in that scorched ground to the corpses moving about. No, he says. And yet. The hiss of water meeting fire pulls her focus and she resumes watching the shells of the villagers doing his bidding to put out the fires and... burying themselves.
There is a marked disconnect inside her; body, mind, soul and heart suddenly separate entities, all independently vying for their own survival. She finds that she has no tears to shed even as the bodies disappear into the ground. No anger to direct at the bandits working side by side with the people sheâd grown up with. They are dead, she tells herself again. Whoever theyâd been in life, they are now unable to care. Does she care? Is she alive?Â
Survivors. That word sparks something inside her. Something that disturbs the indifference that seems to coat her. She turns to face him fully, gaze still shifting between shades of charred wood and forest green. In the back of her mind, where whoever she used to be before all of this had retreated to, her curious nature asks a thousand questions for the stranger. Questions she has no voice to express just yet.
But heâs giving her an answer regardless. A direction to follow. There are survivors. And she can make herself useful by helping them. Thatâs enough to have her attempting to move forward. Her fingers twitch. She flexes them slowly, draws them closed to regain feeling in her hands. She has to keep going.Â
The crow catches her attention. In that semblance of a safe haven within the recesses of her mind, she thinks it cute. Normally, the sight of one would make her smile, but neither the feeling nor the gesture breaks through this time. She acknowledges the kindness, knows she should follow the expecting bird. But she wants to say something, ask his name, ask his reasons, ask where heâs heading next. The questions form one after the other, louder and louder in her head, but the copper in her mouth seems to have wired her jaw shut.
She does not startle even as the bone-crunching noise of corpses meeting hard earth fills her ears. He reminds her of the reality sheâs trapped in and casts her out. Her heart is already too fractured to be bothered by the harshness of his words, regardless of how truthful they are. But it will remember the kindness. Tightening her fist until her nails bite into her palm, she forces herself to take the first step. Then the next. And the next.
Walking past the Necromancer, she swallows the embers down just enough to let something else slide out. âThank you. For burying them.â Her gratitude for him saving the survivors is expected. He didnât have to bother with the bodies, but he did. And sheâs doubly thankful.Â
Once her body feels like her own again, Alice follows the crow into the forest sheâd grown up in, the forest that had always felt like a second home. Itâs just trees, now. It has to be. As she keeps walking, she cuts off her seared roots and sets herself free.Â
Gathering a few horses that had escaped the battle and the fire on the way, she finds the survivors slumbering peacefully under the shade of an ancient tree. She doesnât want to wake them, but she has to. Alice thanks the crow with a bow, throat still burning with swallowed screams and sobs, and sighs quietly as it flies back to its master.Â
A single black feather flutters to the ground. She doesnât look back, but bends down to pick it up and tucks it safely away next to her heart, bracing herself for whatever it is to come next.Â