#dumb problem

I’m so annoyed for such a dumb reason and it’s funny because there is so much that I am upset about rn but I’ve decided to ignore those problems and talk about the most trivial one. I very much enjoy clothing design and I want to actually sew my designs and stuff. Ignoring the fact that I can’t afford the supplies to make clothes there is a big problem with that. My favorite clothes to design are very feminine, especially dresses. Here’s where the problem comes in, I DON’T DO DRESSES! Like fuck that. Wearing a dress or super feminine clothes makes me feel like absolute shit and like I can’t look at myself if I try. I tried once and it went okayish, I resewed a dress and added a bunch of designs and even though I was so proud of what I made it just wasn’t something I could wear and feel okay in. I ended up making it a shirt because I didn’t want to just waste all that work. Another problem is that I don’t have a manikin so If I want to make a dress or fem clothes I have to try them on to make sure everything is right and even in the end the item of clothing was technically made for my body so I can’t just give it to someone and at the same time it would be a waste if it was never worn. Now the obvious solution would just be to ‘find someone who will wear this stuff and make it for them’ and I do agree but that would mean invading their personal space to do measurements and stuff, not to mention Coronavirus is still very much a thing and having a friend over isn’t the safest thing to do right now. Also, for the 0 people wondering my way of making clothes is ‘having a vision’, ‘creating a rough idea of how to do it’, ‘start trying to make it right away with no further thought’ ‘revise idea’ ‘again’. So i don’t have full ‘designs’, it’s more like a bunch of cryptic bs that I understand completely

my clothing rack snapped in half and i have no more space in my closet r u kidding me

Oh god I’m taking a trip w my friend in less than 2 days and im so so so anxious. I’ve traveled lots of times before but it just seems so wrong rn. Im responsible and I don’t go anywhere massless but agh. Traveling gives me the heebijeebies rn

The dilemma of listening to your favorite song too much to the point of hating it, and then you stop listening to it, just to hear the tune somewhere months later and now you can't find it cuz you forgot the name😞

I'd like to say I'm nonbinary but I'm honestly not sure of anything

new goal: don't eat anything in my bedroom at night so I don't have to overcome inertia to go brush my teeth so I can sleep

Why cant people just ship what they wanna ship???? like its sad that this is an actual problem